almost a month since my last entry. maybe i've lost the momentum for blogging. maybe i'm too busy anyway. lets back track.
weekdays all busy with work.
last wkend: went diving, canon A75 camera drowned. sad coz it helped me with so many memories. got feelings u know... i wanted to list the trips i went with it here but i realise there's too many. will try to salvage it in the coming week - going to canon service centre. no money to buy new one coz of 2 wkends before.
2 wkends ago: played with my new toy. watched a disappointing shrek 3.
3 wkends ago: bought my new toy + accessories for $1936 in all!! woohoo!! saved abt $350.
that's it i guess. need to sleep. full diving story at roamings.
Saturday, June 23, 2007
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Slaves, to Fashion, & then Some.
came back from a swim, and saw clothes strewn all over 2 deck chairs, and a wooden paddle.
i wonder why it's so fashionable to carry ard wooden paddles nowsaday. wasn't it not too long ago that they made ppl slaves to do that kind of thing?
and anyway, like i said to a fren before - i'd rather have the freedom of a kayak than the monotony of a dragonboat. there is absolutely no decision making to be done when u're a serf on a dragonboat - i speak from a little experience. the guy at the rudder ask u to row, u row. ask u to stop, u stop. sianz. no need to think, just use muscle. pls correct me if i'm wrong...
i think it was Foot 2002 - we had dragonboating and i got so bored i jumped into the water below benjamin sheares bridge! and zow got everyone to row off without me! heng i caught up in time.. hahha
Still... dunno wat's the draw of carrying a wooden oar around. want to tell everyone that u're buff, u row in a team, and it's the in-thing nowsaday? the fashionable thing to pose with, coz everyone's doing it?
But i guess it's wat the establishment wants anyway. everyone just row forward, dun worry, the guys who studied hard when they were in school and those know everything will steer the rudder and tell u wat to do. now and then one of them will go in front, beat the drum and tell u to row harder, coz we are in a downturn and will have to make painful sacrifices to keep the dragonboat going forward. in the event of a foreign investment going bad, or a foreign investor pulling out, the same guy will beat the drum and tell us no need to worry about anything or think too much, just keep rowing forward, let's move on.
i wonder why it's so fashionable to carry ard wooden paddles nowsaday. wasn't it not too long ago that they made ppl slaves to do that kind of thing?
and anyway, like i said to a fren before - i'd rather have the freedom of a kayak than the monotony of a dragonboat. there is absolutely no decision making to be done when u're a serf on a dragonboat - i speak from a little experience. the guy at the rudder ask u to row, u row. ask u to stop, u stop. sianz. no need to think, just use muscle. pls correct me if i'm wrong...
i think it was Foot 2002 - we had dragonboating and i got so bored i jumped into the water below benjamin sheares bridge! and zow got everyone to row off without me! heng i caught up in time.. hahha
Still... dunno wat's the draw of carrying a wooden oar around. want to tell everyone that u're buff, u row in a team, and it's the in-thing nowsaday? the fashionable thing to pose with, coz everyone's doing it?
But i guess it's wat the establishment wants anyway. everyone just row forward, dun worry, the guys who studied hard when they were in school and those know everything will steer the rudder and tell u wat to do. now and then one of them will go in front, beat the drum and tell u to row harder, coz we are in a downturn and will have to make painful sacrifices to keep the dragonboat going forward. in the event of a foreign investment going bad, or a foreign investor pulling out, the same guy will beat the drum and tell us no need to worry about anything or think too much, just keep rowing forward, let's move on.
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
Black Parade
A world that sends you reeling from decimated dreams
Your misery and hate will kill us all.
So paint it black and take it back
Let's shout it loud and clear
Defiant to the end we hear the call
On and on we carry through the fears
Ooh oh ohhhh
Disappointed faces of your peers
Ooh oh ohhhh
Take a look at me cause I could not care at all
Do or die, you'll never make me
Because the world will never take my heart
Go and try, you'll never break me
We want it all, we wanna play this part
I won't explain or say I'm sorry
I'm unashamed, I'm gonna show my scar
Give a cheer for all the broken
Listen here, because it's who we are
I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
Just a boy, who had to sing this song
I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
I! don't! care!
We'll carry on
We'll carry on
Your misery and hate will kill us all.
So paint it black and take it back
Let's shout it loud and clear
Defiant to the end we hear the call
On and on we carry through the fears
Ooh oh ohhhh
Disappointed faces of your peers
Ooh oh ohhhh
Take a look at me cause I could not care at all
Do or die, you'll never make me
Because the world will never take my heart
Go and try, you'll never break me
We want it all, we wanna play this part
I won't explain or say I'm sorry
I'm unashamed, I'm gonna show my scar
Give a cheer for all the broken
Listen here, because it's who we are
I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
Just a boy, who had to sing this song
I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
I! don't! care!
We'll carry on
We'll carry on
So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same
Sunday, April 29, 2007
Thank u
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
watever i gog to say now wun please u anyway
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
juz keep blogging!
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
yah i know. i dun mean to be mean.
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i hv no clue wat to do.
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
u are lost and u want attention but u dun want attention
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
yup.
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
u want to do somthing but u dunnoe what
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
u feel alone but u are not
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i want to be alone but i dun want to be
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
u want to hurt pple but u dunno hw
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
u want to hurt urself but dun want to
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
u want to do alot of things but u dun want to
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
no i dun want to hurt myself. others have done enuff
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
hurt as in physically exhaust
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
not tt too.
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
well i guess i dunno what i shd be saying to u too
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i love myself to hurt myself physically. besides, i scared pain
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
u have already said the correct things
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
u've showed me u;ve been here, and u understand
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
thank you.
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
u need time dude
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
time heals
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
so in the meantime, feel watever u need to feel.
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
love hurts, time heals
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
then move on by distraction
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
after awhile it wun hurt as mucgh
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
that works for me
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
so maybe it will for u.
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
it works for me too. i';ve been thru enuff to know
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
then at the end of the day, u will be fine. u know that right
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
thank u. i wish i could hug u rite now
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
yes i know.
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
it will always be ok
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
*hugsx*
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
take care dude
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
everything will be back the way it always has.
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
dun rush into that. juz be angry and hurt
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
thank u. i shall paste this on my blog so i can read if i need to
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
be angry n hurt>
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
?
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
yea. juz feel wat u need to feel
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
be angry and hurt and watever. juz feel it and react to it.
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
send some nasty sms-es, scream at her
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
write a nasty blog entry
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
u can't. if i react, it will be bad
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
write a book
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i can;t
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
u are u
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
who cares
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
juz be angry lo
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
let it out
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
but i dun want to hurt her
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
else u could cry too.
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i love her
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
u are too nice
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i loved her
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i feel like it but nothing will come out
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
then u are better than me
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
then do what u deemed neccessary and correct
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
it doesn't work that way
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i'm not better than u
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i want to scream but i dun know how
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
scream lo
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
go somewhere
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
or when no one's hme
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i want to scold her bitch but i can't bring myself to
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
i know what u mean
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
bitch bitch bitch
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
she reads ur blog?
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
no
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
scold on the blog then
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
haha
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
wat's the point when she dun read?
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
haha
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
so it wun look bad on u
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
ahahha
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
mayb one day she will read it
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
or refer to her next time
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
like i did with eugene on my odac entries
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
btw, heroes 19 is out
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
damn nice
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
ahhaha
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i hope one day she gets hurt n tinks of me, how i'm hurt
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
ok.
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
she will
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
dun worry
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
ok
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i will feel wat i need to feel
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i will do wat i need to do
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i will be who i need to be
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
u think its too nasty to tell her "i hope one day she gets hurt n tinks of me"?
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
ha
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
haha
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
whatever u feel like
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
haha
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
cos its u
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
u need to make urself feel better
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
haha
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
yah lor. watthefuck. our frenship is in shambles now anyway
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
wat friendship?
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
whether she is really attached a not
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
annul it
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i can't sever it totally
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
coz it is interconnected
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i can only suspend it
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
so i will.
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
suspend it
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
and let it be normal again after she serves her time.
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
hjahaha
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
ahem.. detention
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
haha
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
is it v childish? hahahhaa to send an sms like tt
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
hahha
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
hahahha
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
its funnie
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
to me
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
yah lor
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i also think so
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
dun have that impact
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
needs some impact... like "u BITCH!"
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
hahhah
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
or just "bitch."
watever i gog to say now wun please u anyway
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
juz keep blogging!
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
yah i know. i dun mean to be mean.
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i hv no clue wat to do.
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
u are lost and u want attention but u dun want attention
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
yup.
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
u want to do somthing but u dunnoe what
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
u feel alone but u are not
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i want to be alone but i dun want to be
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
u want to hurt pple but u dunno hw
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
u want to hurt urself but dun want to
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
u want to do alot of things but u dun want to
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
no i dun want to hurt myself. others have done enuff
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
hurt as in physically exhaust
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
not tt too.
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
well i guess i dunno what i shd be saying to u too
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i love myself to hurt myself physically. besides, i scared pain
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
u have already said the correct things
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
u've showed me u;ve been here, and u understand
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
thank you.
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
u need time dude
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
time heals
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
so in the meantime, feel watever u need to feel.
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
love hurts, time heals
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
then move on by distraction
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
after awhile it wun hurt as mucgh
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
that works for me
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
so maybe it will for u.
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
it works for me too. i';ve been thru enuff to know
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
then at the end of the day, u will be fine. u know that right
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
thank u. i wish i could hug u rite now
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
yes i know.
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
it will always be ok
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
*hugsx*
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
take care dude
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
everything will be back the way it always has.
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
dun rush into that. juz be angry and hurt
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
thank u. i shall paste this on my blog so i can read if i need to
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
be angry n hurt>
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
?
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
yea. juz feel wat u need to feel
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
be angry and hurt and watever. juz feel it and react to it.
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
send some nasty sms-es, scream at her
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
write a nasty blog entry
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
u can't. if i react, it will be bad
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
write a book
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i can;t
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
u are u
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
who cares
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
juz be angry lo
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
let it out
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
but i dun want to hurt her
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
else u could cry too.
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i love her
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
u are too nice
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i loved her
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i feel like it but nothing will come out
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
then u are better than me
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
then do what u deemed neccessary and correct
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
it doesn't work that way
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i'm not better than u
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i want to scream but i dun know how
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
scream lo
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
go somewhere
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
or when no one's hme
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i want to scold her bitch but i can't bring myself to
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
i know what u mean
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
bitch bitch bitch
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
she reads ur blog?
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
no
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
scold on the blog then
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
haha
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
wat's the point when she dun read?
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
haha
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
so it wun look bad on u
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
ahahha
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
mayb one day she will read it
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
or refer to her next time
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
like i did with eugene on my odac entries
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
btw, heroes 19 is out
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
damn nice
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
ahhaha
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i hope one day she gets hurt n tinks of me, how i'm hurt
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
ok.
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
she will
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
dun worry
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
ok
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i will feel wat i need to feel
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i will do wat i need to do
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i will be who i need to be
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
u think its too nasty to tell her "i hope one day she gets hurt n tinks of me"?
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
ha
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
haha
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
whatever u feel like
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
haha
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
cos its u
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
u need to make urself feel better
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
haha
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
yah lor. watthefuck. our frenship is in shambles now anyway
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
wat friendship?
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
whether she is really attached a not
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
annul it
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i can't sever it totally
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
coz it is interconnected
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i can only suspend it
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
so i will.
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
suspend it
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
and let it be normal again after she serves her time.
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
hjahaha
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
ahem.. detention
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
haha
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
is it v childish? hahahhaa to send an sms like tt
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
hahha
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
hahahha
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
its funnie
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
to me
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
yah lor
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
i also think so
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
dun have that impact
What do you do with something that killed you? says:
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
needs some impact... like "u BITCH!"
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
hahhah
ster~ work is rest in betw trips says:
or just "bitch."
I hope
I hope one day your heart gets broken too.
I hope one day you find the love and care you gave fell into bottomless pits.
I hope one day you feel so alone you hole up in your room and blog.
I hope one day you feel so much hurt from someone else's joy.
I hope one day you feel so lost you don't know wat to do except sleep.
I hope one day you feel so angry you want to throw your handphone into the wall and smash it to bits.
I hope one day you feel so little abt yourself you want to curl up and disappear.
And when you do, i hope you think of me.
==========
it's not easy
to be
me
I hope one day you find the love and care you gave fell into bottomless pits.
I hope one day you feel so alone you hole up in your room and blog.
I hope one day you feel so much hurt from someone else's joy.
I hope one day you feel so lost you don't know wat to do except sleep.
I hope one day you feel so angry you want to throw your handphone into the wall and smash it to bits.
I hope one day you feel so little abt yourself you want to curl up and disappear.
And when you do, i hope you think of me.
==========
it's not easy
to be
me
There & Back Again
i tried to make it a point to pack light this time round, determined to clear the summit carrying all of my own stuff.
wat i didn't count on was the emotional baggage that came with the trip.
I wish I knew how to quit you.
wat i didn't count on was the emotional baggage that came with the trip.
I wish I knew how to quit you.
Sunday, April 22, 2007
What's Your Travel Personality?
| Your Travel Personality Is: The Adventurer |
 |
What's Your Personality Type?
| You Are An ENTJ |
| The Executive You are a natural leader - with confidence and strength that inspires others.Driven to succeed, you are always looking for ways to gain, power, knowledge, and expertise.Sometimes you aren't the most considerate person, especially to those who are a bit slow.You are not easily intimidated - and you have a commanding, awe-inspiring presence. You would make a great CEO, entrepreneur, or consultant. |
Been a While
realise hvn't blogged in a while, so better put in an entry to show i'm still alive.
2 possibilities to y i hvn't blogged for so long:
a) i'm finally busy enjoying life and can't be bothered to blog, or
b) my life is total crap and i got nothing to blog.
actually it's
c) i'm so busy doing stuff i dun have the brains to blog.
work is hectic... now i'm taking 2 roles. but the work is still interesting, the boss is good and the colleague is chio. so although hectic i've no complaints. in fact i like being kept on my toes, and tight deadlines... makes things more exciting
just an update on the previous entry - i did take 1 day MC. felt a bit guilty, but the rest was good...
yup... most of waking hours involve work now... with fun colleagues, thankfully. wkends a bit of activity here and there, nothing to shout abt though.
going to kinabalu this tuesday... i think it hasn't sunk in yet, coz i just came back from a traumatising bali trip last mth... i think it'll only sink in when i'm at senai for the flight. did train a bit though... and thanx to agung will be more prepared.
tt's it... sleepy from waking up early everyday, including today and tml, plus the bailey's coffee i had earlier at villa bali w odackies. nice to meet up with them again.
2 possibilities to y i hvn't blogged for so long:
a) i'm finally busy enjoying life and can't be bothered to blog, or
b) my life is total crap and i got nothing to blog.
actually it's
c) i'm so busy doing stuff i dun have the brains to blog.
work is hectic... now i'm taking 2 roles. but the work is still interesting, the boss is good and the colleague is chio. so although hectic i've no complaints. in fact i like being kept on my toes, and tight deadlines... makes things more exciting
just an update on the previous entry - i did take 1 day MC. felt a bit guilty, but the rest was good...
yup... most of waking hours involve work now... with fun colleagues, thankfully. wkends a bit of activity here and there, nothing to shout abt though.
going to kinabalu this tuesday... i think it hasn't sunk in yet, coz i just came back from a traumatising bali trip last mth... i think it'll only sink in when i'm at senai for the flight. did train a bit though... and thanx to agung will be more prepared.
tt's it... sleepy from waking up early everyday, including today and tml, plus the bailey's coffee i had earlier at villa bali w odackies. nice to meet up with them again.
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Should I go to work tml?
As much as i enjoy work... i do feel a bit overwhelmed of late. and i have a runny nose, slight cough and slight body aches. perfect excuse for MC. plus boss already knows i'm sick - i was flooding my cubicle with nose snot when he came over to arrow me.
"this project, blah blah blah, and... are you ok?"
"no." obviously.
hahahha ok, i mean he IS a nice guy - a good boss as well. but i was getting really really cranky from getting dehydrated thru my nose.
shall assess the situation when i wake up tml. if got aches anyway, it is my social responsibility to stay at home and not infect my colleagues with my virus.
"this project, blah blah blah, and... are you ok?"
"no." obviously.
hahahha ok, i mean he IS a nice guy - a good boss as well. but i was getting really really cranky from getting dehydrated thru my nose.
shall assess the situation when i wake up tml. if got aches anyway, it is my social responsibility to stay at home and not infect my colleagues with my virus.
Saturday, March 24, 2007
A Little Bit Sick
As if having a ticklish throat, runny nose and not being able to swim or jog is bad enuff - there has to be nagging thrown in too.
makes me kinda miss hall life.
but there are good things here too... so i'll just block out the not-so-nice parts.
makes me kinda miss hall life.
but there are good things here too... so i'll just block out the not-so-nice parts.
Sunday, March 18, 2007
Thanx
Once again, as usual, lack sleep. i shd really turn in after this post but got shows streaming in. gotta watch. darn.
Over the week, a new fren said something really, really nice. Thank you, but u probably don't know me well enuff, that's why. i'm starting to see how being an ass works now. Thank you very much for thinking tt way.
Over the week, a new fren said something really, really nice. Thank you, but u probably don't know me well enuff, that's why. i'm starting to see how being an ass works now. Thank you very much for thinking tt way.
Monday, March 12, 2007
IT Fair
Quick post. Never knew Singapore was so full of geeks, and they were all at the IT fair same time as me. Wanted to recce dSLRs but the jostling and pushing made me feel slightly claustraphobic. held both nikon n canon ones a while, then got the hell out, avoiding the hapless little kids and trolleys of new printers along the way, getting pushed from left, right back. Had. To. Get. Out.
And to think they want to cram this little island with more ppl. so where u going to put the extra heads? half of singapore already takes the same MRT train to work as me liao. if they bring in more population (read: chinamen) or foreign talent (read: ppl other than from china) i am not giving a fuck to the environment anymore and will get a car. then at least i have my own personal space and not have some stinking talent lean against me all the way to tanjong pagar.
anyway. ally didn't answer my calls, reply my smses nor call back. well... watever too then. had to get out. have to go back. tml still gotta work, tonite still gotta blog.
And to think they want to cram this little island with more ppl. so where u going to put the extra heads? half of singapore already takes the same MRT train to work as me liao. if they bring in more population (read: chinamen) or foreign talent (read: ppl other than from china) i am not giving a fuck to the environment anymore and will get a car. then at least i have my own personal space and not have some stinking talent lean against me all the way to tanjong pagar.
anyway. ally didn't answer my calls, reply my smses nor call back. well... watever too then. had to get out. have to go back. tml still gotta work, tonite still gotta blog.
Saturday, March 10, 2007
After Bali 2 - Work is Rest in Between Trips
It's been almost a week since returning - my 2nd toenail on left foot is still black, and the tip of the toe is numb. that long cut on my right shin is now a peeling strip bak kwa, and i've been shedding dead skin for 7 days. and i almost died. again.
well maybe it wasn't as close a shave as last time. but even though i could hardly keep awake on monday and tuesday, i've nv been more thankful to go back to work. to be in a safe, airconditioned office in a comfortable swivel chair messing abt with excel sheets. but i was so floozy from lack of sleep i totally didn't feel the tremors that whole of CBD panicked over - even laughed at girl colleagues felt it. twice. at my desk i was falling asleep after lunch, and too spaced out to tok cock to my lunch buddies - they said i was really quiet those few days.
But at the same time, I'm strangely happy/grateful that i went for this trip. nothing like a life threatening journey to make u realise how lucky u r, and how much u've left behind getting lost on mountains.
I had quite a few hallucinations along the trek, the funniest being the Taxi Stand, and the worst being of me slipping very badly on a wet boulder on a river bed, and cracking my head open. my brain wld be splattered all over the rocks, and my companions too tired and too far from end point to drag my remains down. i wld then be left there for days and half eaten by animals before being returned to my understandably upset family.
I guess it stemmed from
a) see QZ slip and slide down a wet boulder on a river bed earlier during the trek rite in front of me and realising i couldn't do anything to help him, and
b) wanting to read "Lord of the Flies" again but a fren is still holding on to the book after 2 yrs.
And i've come to realise that yes, as i grow older i am more and more kiasee, but it is not death that scares me as much as wat my loved ones will have to go thru. so stumbling down the dormant volcano really made me realise wat was really impt.
so here's my dilemma - stopping all these dangerous activities and start to take things for granted? or continue and risk making my loved ones worried?
i think i'll let both sides balance each other out. take things for granted and go for trips, then come back home freaked out and go for trips again when the fear has been forgotten. then wonder why i wanted to climb the mountain 2 hrs into the trek. sorta vicious cycle.
Traveller's Tales, as usual, at http://rockies-roamings.blogspot.com/
well maybe it wasn't as close a shave as last time. but even though i could hardly keep awake on monday and tuesday, i've nv been more thankful to go back to work. to be in a safe, airconditioned office in a comfortable swivel chair messing abt with excel sheets. but i was so floozy from lack of sleep i totally didn't feel the tremors that whole of CBD panicked over - even laughed at girl colleagues felt it. twice. at my desk i was falling asleep after lunch, and too spaced out to tok cock to my lunch buddies - they said i was really quiet those few days.
But at the same time, I'm strangely happy/grateful that i went for this trip. nothing like a life threatening journey to make u realise how lucky u r, and how much u've left behind getting lost on mountains.
I had quite a few hallucinations along the trek, the funniest being the Taxi Stand, and the worst being of me slipping very badly on a wet boulder on a river bed, and cracking my head open. my brain wld be splattered all over the rocks, and my companions too tired and too far from end point to drag my remains down. i wld then be left there for days and half eaten by animals before being returned to my understandably upset family.
I guess it stemmed from
a) see QZ slip and slide down a wet boulder on a river bed earlier during the trek rite in front of me and realising i couldn't do anything to help him, and
b) wanting to read "Lord of the Flies" again but a fren is still holding on to the book after 2 yrs.
And i've come to realise that yes, as i grow older i am more and more kiasee, but it is not death that scares me as much as wat my loved ones will have to go thru. so stumbling down the dormant volcano really made me realise wat was really impt.
so here's my dilemma - stopping all these dangerous activities and start to take things for granted? or continue and risk making my loved ones worried?
i think i'll let both sides balance each other out. take things for granted and go for trips, then come back home freaked out and go for trips again when the fear has been forgotten. then wonder why i wanted to climb the mountain 2 hrs into the trek. sorta vicious cycle.
Traveller's Tales, as usual, at http://rockies-roamings.blogspot.com/
Monday, February 26, 2007
Before Bali 2
It's almost 2am - its late and i gotta sleep tml. but i can't before the last 6 mins of Heroes episode 6 are done streaming and i'm done watching. so i come here.
been really busy and rattled these past few days - 1st the sianness of going back to work after a long CNY break, the multitude and amount of stuff i needed to do. then that so many ppl to meet with over the wkend, as opposed to the lack of during the 1st 2 wkends of the mth. really stretched my time.
this, coupled with that excitement, that anxiety which characterises the looming of every adventure - anxiety that i may hv forgotten abt something or left something undone. and the excitement which makes me forget abt these somethings. that restlessness which gives me an unproductive buzz in my head and my heart.
ok heroes ep 6 is done. gdnite.
been really busy and rattled these past few days - 1st the sianness of going back to work after a long CNY break, the multitude and amount of stuff i needed to do. then that so many ppl to meet with over the wkend, as opposed to the lack of during the 1st 2 wkends of the mth. really stretched my time.
this, coupled with that excitement, that anxiety which characterises the looming of every adventure - anxiety that i may hv forgotten abt something or left something undone. and the excitement which makes me forget abt these somethings. that restlessness which gives me an unproductive buzz in my head and my heart.
ok heroes ep 6 is done. gdnite.
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Nothing but Sleep
i think sleep is a waste of time. and not only that, i can't seem to tell how much i need.
if i don't sleep enuff, i'll be falling asleep at work if it's too boring. or i'll be taking naps and wasting time in the afternoon. if i dun get enuff sleep, i can't think. i'm sure its the same for everyone.
if i sleep too much until next morning/afternoon, i get a migraine, and will have to spend the rest of the day sleeping it off. whole wkend gone. (there's no such thing as too much sleep on a working day)
like today. i slept too late, at 4am watching vcds (wat else is there to do during CNY?). woke up 12nn, still feeling ok. took a badly needed nap at 4pm. woke up 5.30pm with stabbing pain in my eye. or eye socket. cold sweat. shivering - too cold for the fan but too hot without it. pain pain pain in the head. room wobbly. no, didn't eat magic mushrooms. too pain to continue sleeping. took painkiller, took coffee.
and slowly, slowly, things got back to almost normal in half hr.
i hate sleep. it's a complete waste of time when i can be doing other stuff. but sleep is essential, else i can't think. right now 6hrs is survival, 7hrs is total rest. anything more on a wkday night is downright unnatural. wkends if i wake up later than 12.30 pm, welcome to migraine metropolis.
and frankly, i want a reason to get up early on wkends - so that i dun waste them.
i just might be getting my wish soon. of my own doing, of coz. since when do things simply happen by accident?
if i don't sleep enuff, i'll be falling asleep at work if it's too boring. or i'll be taking naps and wasting time in the afternoon. if i dun get enuff sleep, i can't think. i'm sure its the same for everyone.
if i sleep too much until next morning/afternoon, i get a migraine, and will have to spend the rest of the day sleeping it off. whole wkend gone. (there's no such thing as too much sleep on a working day)
like today. i slept too late, at 4am watching vcds (wat else is there to do during CNY?). woke up 12nn, still feeling ok. took a badly needed nap at 4pm. woke up 5.30pm with stabbing pain in my eye. or eye socket. cold sweat. shivering - too cold for the fan but too hot without it. pain pain pain in the head. room wobbly. no, didn't eat magic mushrooms. too pain to continue sleeping. took painkiller, took coffee.
and slowly, slowly, things got back to almost normal in half hr.
i hate sleep. it's a complete waste of time when i can be doing other stuff. but sleep is essential, else i can't think. right now 6hrs is survival, 7hrs is total rest. anything more on a wkday night is downright unnatural. wkends if i wake up later than 12.30 pm, welcome to migraine metropolis.
and frankly, i want a reason to get up early on wkends - so that i dun waste them.
i just might be getting my wish soon. of my own doing, of coz. since when do things simply happen by accident?
Sunday, February 18, 2007
Nothing on CNY
I want to write - but i dunno wat to say.
maybe coz its 5am and i'm tired.
maybe coz there's nothing to say.
there's nothing happening anyway.
i'm still at work - things are hectic but its nothing i can't handle. and i already spend most of my waking hours at it, i dun wanna talk abt it here too.
and on the other end, "nothing happened" too.
and i don't want to tok abt it either, coz there's nothing to tok abt.
frens-wise, some of them read this, so i shdn't say anything either. anyway wat's the point, they'll get pissed or upset and either way there's nothing i can do abt it.
just got a reply from my german friend, in response to my chinese new year greeting: "thanks a lot brother, we are wishing you a happy and healthy new year as well! gonna write ya soon my friend.:)"
now there's something to write abt. "brother". this is a guy who i knew for barely 5 days in singapore and opened up his house to me 1 day after he checked his email and realised i was in europe. he even left me his house key. he and his mum and sis made me wish i didn't cut short my trip and could impose on them more. this guy is definitely more than a friend to me.
back to nothing: nothing progresses - still slacking off exercise.
i guess that's it. i wanna sleep. happy chinese new year.
maybe coz its 5am and i'm tired.
maybe coz there's nothing to say.
there's nothing happening anyway.
i'm still at work - things are hectic but its nothing i can't handle. and i already spend most of my waking hours at it, i dun wanna talk abt it here too.
and on the other end, "nothing happened" too.
and i don't want to tok abt it either, coz there's nothing to tok abt.
frens-wise, some of them read this, so i shdn't say anything either. anyway wat's the point, they'll get pissed or upset and either way there's nothing i can do abt it.
just got a reply from my german friend, in response to my chinese new year greeting: "thanks a lot brother, we are wishing you a happy and healthy new year as well! gonna write ya soon my friend.:)"
now there's something to write abt. "brother". this is a guy who i knew for barely 5 days in singapore and opened up his house to me 1 day after he checked his email and realised i was in europe. he even left me his house key. he and his mum and sis made me wish i didn't cut short my trip and could impose on them more. this guy is definitely more than a friend to me.
back to nothing: nothing progresses - still slacking off exercise.
i guess that's it. i wanna sleep. happy chinese new year.
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Nothing Much
Nothing's been happening, so nothing to write about here. Everything's still the same... still procrastinating.
Work is getting funner... more hectic too. At least its more thrilling than wkends. So used to work I miss wearing a shirt and pants + leather shoes on wkends... almost went back this wkend, but procrastinated that as well.
Will take up proper blading lessons soon, so there shd be more to write abt here. prob after my Bali trip.
CNY coming. boring. Office toilets and lifts playing endless irritating CNY music. made the mistake of telling lunch buddies that I hate CNY music. now they remind me to listen when we take the lift.
Been given additional tasks at work besides from section i'm in... have to do write up on related business articles to the project mgr, and i'm grateful for it - else i won't read the business news at all. It's also a good sign they're putting this on me.
Going for a run tml... hope I'm fit enuff for agung end of the mth... and hope i'll write all abt it in ramblings. can't rem much abt frasers liao. hahahah
Other than that, nothing. much.
Work is getting funner... more hectic too. At least its more thrilling than wkends. So used to work I miss wearing a shirt and pants + leather shoes on wkends... almost went back this wkend, but procrastinated that as well.
Will take up proper blading lessons soon, so there shd be more to write abt here. prob after my Bali trip.
CNY coming. boring. Office toilets and lifts playing endless irritating CNY music. made the mistake of telling lunch buddies that I hate CNY music. now they remind me to listen when we take the lift.
Been given additional tasks at work besides from section i'm in... have to do write up on related business articles to the project mgr, and i'm grateful for it - else i won't read the business news at all. It's also a good sign they're putting this on me.
Going for a run tml... hope I'm fit enuff for agung end of the mth... and hope i'll write all abt it in ramblings. can't rem much abt frasers liao. hahahah
Other than that, nothing. much.
