things are progressing, but not as well as i hoped. or maybe i want more than what is given. maybe that's y i feeling a little down. coz other ppl still hv it better.
i need to stop and take stock - to see where i'm heading.
just hope i'm rewarded for my efforts.
it shdn't hv to be so difficult.
i guess i'm feeling insecure and worried. and when i feel negative, i take it out on others.
i need to be a better person.
and you make me want to.
Sunday, September 24, 2006
Sometimes
sometimes i really wish that i am the type who will bo chup - watever comes, comes. don't come means don't come. but i'm not. i HAVE to make things work. so i will run around and make sure everyone is on the same boat. until i started work.
i'm not saying i'm the only one who rows the boat. others chip in also. but i took on more coz when i was a student, i still had more free time.
but now when responsibilities are assigned, i do not wish to take up any more that what i have/want to. i understand you are busy, but i am too. that's y we started assigning responsibilities in the 1st place - to be fair to everyone, so its not up to a few of us to make everyone feel happy. everyone shd chip in to make everyone feel happy.
similarly, when i've arranged something, and u want a change in arrangements, u can go ahead to arrange with everyone. just dun expect me to clean up ur mess and re-do all my effort. last time still can, now i dun hv the energy liao.
i know that more than half the time, my efforts pay off handsomely. i usually enjoy my time with the group. but i can only give so much now. so pls pull ur own weight also. if u want to change direction, its up to u to pull everyone ur way. if u dun want to do that, u're free to get off on your own accord. i dun wanna pull for anyone anymore.
no hard feelings.
i'm not saying i'm the only one who rows the boat. others chip in also. but i took on more coz when i was a student, i still had more free time.
but now when responsibilities are assigned, i do not wish to take up any more that what i have/want to. i understand you are busy, but i am too. that's y we started assigning responsibilities in the 1st place - to be fair to everyone, so its not up to a few of us to make everyone feel happy. everyone shd chip in to make everyone feel happy.
similarly, when i've arranged something, and u want a change in arrangements, u can go ahead to arrange with everyone. just dun expect me to clean up ur mess and re-do all my effort. last time still can, now i dun hv the energy liao.
i know that more than half the time, my efforts pay off handsomely. i usually enjoy my time with the group. but i can only give so much now. so pls pull ur own weight also. if u want to change direction, its up to u to pull everyone ur way. if u dun want to do that, u're free to get off on your own accord. i dun wanna pull for anyone anymore.
no hard feelings.
Thursday, September 21, 2006
Sunday, September 17, 2006
Tired Post
I want to comment on current affairs, but at 3.30am, i'm too sleepy to think, and too tired to take the ten steps to the hall to fumble in the dark for the newspaper. thus i will expend less effort and blog abt my boring life instead. ha.
in 3.5 hrs i will hv to wake up and go for my company soccer tournament. i don't play soccer. heck, i don't even like playing ball/team sports. my dept was going, so i cldn't refuse - my feeble attempt at resisting was to tell the team captain to put me in reserve, as i might be going overseas (this was true then). last week he told me he couldn't find anyone, so i'd hv to play. he probably didn't try looking too hard.
but no worries. my plan is simple -
if the ball comes my way, i kick it twds the other side.
if the opponent, with the ball, comes my way, i shall harass him for all of 30 seconds.
if the opponent turns violent, i avoid his elbow/shoulder/head/fist/spanner and collaspe on the ground. thereafter i will feel unwell, and come home early.
been sick for the past 2 wks too, so didn't manage to spend time with impt ppl. i just hope things are still progressing well.
so this wkend is packed. i hope the coming week wld be fruitful as well, to make up for lost time.
in 3.5 hrs i will hv to wake up and go for my company soccer tournament. i don't play soccer. heck, i don't even like playing ball/team sports. my dept was going, so i cldn't refuse - my feeble attempt at resisting was to tell the team captain to put me in reserve, as i might be going overseas (this was true then). last week he told me he couldn't find anyone, so i'd hv to play. he probably didn't try looking too hard.
but no worries. my plan is simple -
if the ball comes my way, i kick it twds the other side.
if the opponent, with the ball, comes my way, i shall harass him for all of 30 seconds.
if the opponent turns violent, i avoid his elbow/shoulder/head/fist/spanner and collaspe on the ground. thereafter i will feel unwell, and come home early.
been sick for the past 2 wks too, so didn't manage to spend time with impt ppl. i just hope things are still progressing well.
so this wkend is packed. i hope the coming week wld be fruitful as well, to make up for lost time.
Sitting Waiting Wishing
but i'm in so deep
you know i'm such a fool for you
you got me wrapped around your finger
do you have to let it linger?
Sunday, September 03, 2006
Don't You Just Love 20hr Days?
Woke up at 6.30am yesterday, and proceeded with the following:
- Help Mum & Dad pack finish, all of us go airport.
- Breakfast at mac's; years since they last ate a big breakfast.
- Bye Mum & Dad... have a fun trip.
- Pick up insurance claim form for my dengue episode from hospital.
- Consult bank staff & waste insurance agent's time - opened new bank account.
- Stone in front of PC for 1 hr.
- Swim for 1 hr+.
- Shower, cook lunch, expiring ice cream for dessert.
- Stone in front of PC for 1/2 hr.
- Hot date! meet at starbucks.
- Still waiting at starbucks. read newspaper.
- Finally she arrives. Coffee and newspaper.
- Walk to esplanade, shop at marina, dinner at suntec.
- Play pool. kena trashed 4-1, none of which is my credit.
- Saw her to cab. Last train has already left. Last bus home.
- Tok cock to security guard. he gives me way too much information. but not as bad as zoe tay.
- Reach home 1am. Do accounts. Shower. Record in blog.
- Sleep at 2.30am.
PS. any suggestions to nice dinner places i can bring someone?? pls let me know!! this kind of thing i used to bo chup... now cannot!!
- Help Mum & Dad pack finish, all of us go airport.
- Breakfast at mac's; years since they last ate a big breakfast.
- Bye Mum & Dad... have a fun trip.
- Pick up insurance claim form for my dengue episode from hospital.
- Consult bank staff & waste insurance agent's time - opened new bank account.
- Stone in front of PC for 1 hr.
- Swim for 1 hr+.
- Shower, cook lunch, expiring ice cream for dessert.
- Stone in front of PC for 1/2 hr.
- Hot date! meet at starbucks.
- Still waiting at starbucks. read newspaper.
- Finally she arrives. Coffee and newspaper.
- Walk to esplanade, shop at marina, dinner at suntec.
- Play pool. kena trashed 4-1, none of which is my credit.
- Saw her to cab. Last train has already left. Last bus home.
- Tok cock to security guard. he gives me way too much information. but not as bad as zoe tay.
- Reach home 1am. Do accounts. Shower. Record in blog.
- Sleep at 2.30am.
PS. any suggestions to nice dinner places i can bring someone?? pls let me know!! this kind of thing i used to bo chup... now cannot!!
"How Do You Climb Onto The Shoulders Of Giants?"
was what a good fren asked. probably metaphorically, but not that i care. here is my answer:
1st, u have to find one. Written accounts have placed the residences of giants on the top end of magic beanstalks, so u might wanna try looking there. although climbing rock walls and bean stalks might be different, the fundamental techniques are the same, so i'm sure u shd hv no problems there.
next, although u r not an englishman, so the giant will not grind ur bones to make his bread, he might grind them to make his noodles, since u r oriental. as such, u might want to wait until he is asleep, like a certain "Jack" did.
Written accounts have mentioned that giants fall asleep on their great dining tables after heavy meals, so after that happens, you will be able to carry out ur plan. do note that climbing bean stalks and rock walls are different from climbing giant table legs, as they tend to be smoother. you might want to try other methods, like climbing up an ajacent giant cupboard before lowering urself with a very very long rope.
next, when u're on the giant table, take care not to upset any giant cutlery or glasses of water, in case you wake the giant up or get washed away by the ensuing flash flood. if the giant stirs during this time, do not hide in giant loaves of bread, in case u get eaten unknowingly. instead, hide in giant pieces of swiss cheese, so u can look out of holes to see if the giant takes a fancy to your cheese. if so, scamper out of a hole at the other side to avoid detection.
another good place to hide would be in the fruit bowl, but behind any fruit except red apples, as that is always the 1st (and only) fruit to be taken in any situation.
in the unfortunate event of detection, jump behind a FULL glass of water. the magnification of the curved surface and refraction of the water will make u appear (hopefully) as big as the glass. snarl at the giant, and hopefully the distorted image would startle the giant long enuff to make ur escape.
if the giant fails to get startled, tip the glass over in his direction. this would not hurt him very much, but get the front of his pants all wet. hopefully this would make him scramble to find paper towels long enuff to make ur escape.
note: do NOT use the same tactic with a hot beverage. not only would it hurt ur hands, it would make the giant VERY, VERY angry. u do NOT want that to happen.
once going up on the shoulder, take care not to make any noise, as the giant's ear is situated very close to the shoulder, and is BIG - probably able to pick up the most minute sound, as mentioned in writing about one giant, known only by his initials "BFG".
when your task is completed, quickly make ur escape, hopefully undetected. once you reach the beanstalk, you are safe, as written accounts have mentioned that giants are clumsy while climbing down beanstalks.
Although chopping down magic beanstalks to avoid the wrath of giants, as written before, is effective, the consequences are devasting, and thus chopping should be avoided, if possible. The written account of a certain "Jack" ends at the happy ending of him chopping down the magic beanstalk and getting rich, presumably living happily ever after. but it does not mention how "Jack" eventually lost all his riches and ended up even poorer, due to the lawsuits that came from the property losses after the giant fell to the ground.
Good Giant Hunting!
1st, u have to find one. Written accounts have placed the residences of giants on the top end of magic beanstalks, so u might wanna try looking there. although climbing rock walls and bean stalks might be different, the fundamental techniques are the same, so i'm sure u shd hv no problems there.
next, although u r not an englishman, so the giant will not grind ur bones to make his bread, he might grind them to make his noodles, since u r oriental. as such, u might want to wait until he is asleep, like a certain "Jack" did.
Written accounts have mentioned that giants fall asleep on their great dining tables after heavy meals, so after that happens, you will be able to carry out ur plan. do note that climbing bean stalks and rock walls are different from climbing giant table legs, as they tend to be smoother. you might want to try other methods, like climbing up an ajacent giant cupboard before lowering urself with a very very long rope.
next, when u're on the giant table, take care not to upset any giant cutlery or glasses of water, in case you wake the giant up or get washed away by the ensuing flash flood. if the giant stirs during this time, do not hide in giant loaves of bread, in case u get eaten unknowingly. instead, hide in giant pieces of swiss cheese, so u can look out of holes to see if the giant takes a fancy to your cheese. if so, scamper out of a hole at the other side to avoid detection.
another good place to hide would be in the fruit bowl, but behind any fruit except red apples, as that is always the 1st (and only) fruit to be taken in any situation.
in the unfortunate event of detection, jump behind a FULL glass of water. the magnification of the curved surface and refraction of the water will make u appear (hopefully) as big as the glass. snarl at the giant, and hopefully the distorted image would startle the giant long enuff to make ur escape.
if the giant fails to get startled, tip the glass over in his direction. this would not hurt him very much, but get the front of his pants all wet. hopefully this would make him scramble to find paper towels long enuff to make ur escape.
note: do NOT use the same tactic with a hot beverage. not only would it hurt ur hands, it would make the giant VERY, VERY angry. u do NOT want that to happen.
once going up on the shoulder, take care not to make any noise, as the giant's ear is situated very close to the shoulder, and is BIG - probably able to pick up the most minute sound, as mentioned in writing about one giant, known only by his initials "BFG".
when your task is completed, quickly make ur escape, hopefully undetected. once you reach the beanstalk, you are safe, as written accounts have mentioned that giants are clumsy while climbing down beanstalks.
Although chopping down magic beanstalks to avoid the wrath of giants, as written before, is effective, the consequences are devasting, and thus chopping should be avoided, if possible. The written account of a certain "Jack" ends at the happy ending of him chopping down the magic beanstalk and getting rich, presumably living happily ever after. but it does not mention how "Jack" eventually lost all his riches and ended up even poorer, due to the lawsuits that came from the property losses after the giant fell to the ground.
Good Giant Hunting!
