Sometimes

sometimes i really wish that i am the type who will bo chup - watever comes, comes. don't come means don't come. but i'm not. i HAVE to make things work. so i will run around and make sure everyone is on the same boat. until i started work.

i'm not saying i'm the only one who rows the boat. others chip in also. but i took on more coz when i was a student, i still had more free time.

but now when responsibilities are assigned, i do not wish to take up any more that what i have/want to. i understand you are busy, but i am too. that's y we started assigning responsibilities in the 1st place - to be fair to everyone, so its not up to a few of us to make everyone feel happy. everyone shd chip in to make everyone feel happy.

similarly, when i've arranged something, and u want a change in arrangements, u can go ahead to arrange with everyone. just dun expect me to clean up ur mess and re-do all my effort. last time still can, now i dun hv the energy liao.

i know that more than half the time, my efforts pay off handsomely. i usually enjoy my time with the group. but i can only give so much now. so pls pull ur own weight also. if u want to change direction, its up to u to pull everyone ur way. if u dun want to do that, u're free to get off on your own accord. i dun wanna pull for anyone anymore.

no hard feelings.