Packed

Don't really hv much time nor the energy, hence this short post after a week.

Day times during weekdays taken up by work. Using Excel and a simple formula, may have found a way to either
a) lighten everyone's workload and need to calculate, or
b) effectively let the manager cut half his manpower needed.
The results are so astounding, for once even i can't believe how smart i am. but of coz, it may not be applicable.

After work I'm packing up my time, either going out with girls or jogging. if not then resting at home with family or going diving. ok, only went diving once. more abt it on roamings when i have the time and energy.

Planning to pack in more stuff by september... wasted too much time and energy in boon lay liao. now gotta do the things i shd finally do.

Also need to start thinking abt how to manage finances and abt my career path. hopefully wkend wun be too tiring.

finally, my life is heading in the direction i want it to. packed, tiring, eventful, satisfying.

a bit more "finances" to "manage" wld be good too.

Ah Girl: ?? Feb 2004 - 14 Aug 2006

Aged: 2 1/2 yrs

Thank you so much, for being my 1st pet, along with ah pui, and for being part of my life.

Thank you so much, for showing me the miracle of birth.

Thank you so much, for holding on as long as you could.

I hope that your life had been that much better being a part of mine.

I am sorry that your part had grown smaller over the years,

but I hope you know I always loved you.

So in return, I immortalise you here. As you will always be part of my life.

To the first girl who ever licked me on the nose.

Thank you, and goodbye.

Environmental Manipulation Implement vs Spade

I'm always wary of big long wordy titles, and titles where it just doesn't seem right. Coz if u can't call a spade a spade, then i believe u have something to hide.

an example.
Until a few yrs ago, we were calling insurance agents, guess what? insurance agents. now u see all sorts of weird titles in the classifieds - financial planner, wealth management, life planner, personal financial consultant, etc etc etc. come on... u don''t PLAN my finances, u don't PLAN how much i earn and spend. and i certainly don't have any wealth for u to manage. i don't want anyone else to plan my life, and i absolutely need no advice from a salesman how to spend my money.

that's wat they are anyway isn't it? just insurance salesmen. i guess we're used to calling them "agents" already, which in the legal sense isn't incorrect. after all, the insurance company is the principal, and the salesman definitely isn't going to pay out any of his commision money to you. planner? consultant? come on... at most u are an AGENT. it's the insurance company's big shots who PLAN wat investment-linked policies to con ppl with, and they CONSULT their bosses.

a nice sounding name might fool some ppl initially, but if u need to fool ppl, then what u are offering must be something undesirable in the 1st place. comprehend?

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on another, grim note.

fear can drive one to do the unimaginable.
and i have done it.

a much younger me would have laughed evilly at the present me. a much younger me without fear.

i'm afraid.

As usual

it happens again. always always always.

am i really that detestful to begin with? one step forward and u run away?

i'm still back where i started. or rather, i nv left.

wat will it take?

why?

why me?

why never me?

why

Have You Ever...

...gazed at the fren sitting beside you, longed to put your arm around her and hold her close, to let her head rest on your shoulder? but you know you can't, coz the moment that happens, you know she wld absolutely totally freak out and nv hang out with u again?

And you have absolutely totally no clue how to get her to love u?

Yet another song, now forever associated with you.

"But I'm in so deep
You know I'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger?"

For All Working Readers:

"Are you aware that all jobs require you to do things you'd rather not do? That's why they have to pay you."

-Dilbert

Raffles Place Rat

Ok ok... not quite at raffles place... then wat do i call myself? Tanjong Pagar Tiger? hahaaha ridiculous.

so. i'm finally here, at my decided-during-uni short term goal. to be a raffles place rat. to wear a tie, long sleeved collared shirts and swanky leather shoes to work everyday. to wake up when there's already light. to rush to work flustered in the mornings, squeezing with hundreds of commuters on the mrt. to search for a place for lunch amongst huge lunchtime crowds. to work in an aircon, carpeted office, with my very own dedicated extension phone line. working 9am to 7pm, fueled by limitless amounts of coffee. where i always wanted to be.

(of coz, this is as opposed to waking up at 5+am to reach jurong before 8am, wearing polo-tee, jeans and sneakers to work, staring at machines and diagrams all day. but i'd very much rather wake up at 1pm everyday and spend the whole day at home in singlet and shorts and watch gundam seed destiny.)

or is it? everything is new and fun now, but i can't stand the thought of doing this all my life. there must be something more. own business? adventure guide? professional backpacker? i have a follow up 6yr short term goal liao... but that's it. i guess i'll figure it out as i go along.

anyway, right now there's good and bad.

BAD:
- senior colleague who thinks he's damn smart. well, maybe he isn't a bad person... but i think his bark is 10 times louder than his bite. but being new, i may be wrong...
- falling asleep during classroom sessions (wat's new?)
- reaching office sweaty everyday
- limitless amounts of coffee

GOOD:
- my current seat has a view of the sea!
- my current job situation as a whole
- very nice (current) manager
- lunch buddies with all the newbies
- cute girl among the newbies
- rotated for 6 mths (at least i won't get bored so soon)
- (hopefully) being selected for bigger things
-limitless amounts of coffee

frankly, everything is still fluid, coz i'm part of a new hazy programme to rotate noobs throughout my department functions for us to get a better view of things, i dunno wat i'll be doing eventually. i dun think anyone knows. maybe the director's making it up as he goes along, coz my (current) manager's as clueless as me. bad thing is liddat ppl dunno how to deploy me also, and i end up doing sai kang. but at least i learn a lot and hopefully hv chance for bigger things.

yup... i like wat i see so far... but i hvn't seen much yet. the enthu fresh grad vs the perpetual cynic.