Life, Now.

Currently Playing: Over Our Heads by Zero 7

Does anyone still read this? or given up due to lack of updates? hahah. my part 2 next week never happened. guess it kinda sums up what's going on right now.

Haven't blogged for more than a month now - maybe i'm out-growing this. but i feel i shd explain.

Work has been tough - the past month i've been really stretched, as promised by the boss. so much that last last week my colleague working with me can actually see the strain. hahaha. overwhelmed, my brain slows down to keep track of everything happening, which of coz causes me to lose track of even more. let's see... I had to set up and coordinate surveys for local & overseas colleagues, come up with a 1.5hr presentation for visitors from the HQ, had a course coming up the following week, and had to play nanny to a noob auditor.

I don't blame the auditor at all - but there were times i showed my frustration to her coz entire days were spent with her while other a/m deadlines were approaching. on the friday dept meeting i was quite sure that the audit issues wld be settled that day itself, and while coordination work on the surveys were done, i told my boss that i wld finish the untouched presentation over the wkend. and went for half day to take a badly, badly needed rest - the following week i wld be on course full time 5 days.

wrong. prob due to the work stress + non-exercise from long hrs the past mth i kena flu. i thot ok, miss 1 day of the course, still got 80% mah. anyway i already know my stuff.

wrong. tue when i stepped into office my boss told me auditor got issues. u can join the course tml. i'll take philipines, vietnam, malaysia issues. you take thailand and indonesia.
*due to sleepy cough mixture + sleepy runny nose meds, i cannot remember anything else from that day.

wednesday i had remarks all round that i looked much better - coz i threw the meds away. spent 1 hr on the phone getting colleague in indonesia to explain the discrepancies. coordinated with thai colleague. figured out wat philipines' problems were by myself - concerned colleague was missing from desk. rest of the day busy with can't-rem-wat. just busy.

thursday friday whole day speaking to colleague in thailand. audit deadline extended to next tuesday - it shd have ended the week before. i hate audits. the course was forfeited.

that's a sample work week. will stay until 9pm at least once a week, on good weeks. at work never have time to surf. never ending task list. and one task always leads to another. sometimes bring work home on weekends.

so for this past month even if i come back home with time to run/cycle, i got no energy to do so. even on wkends, i got no energy to do anything. did not turn up for company excursion to JB, earning the wrath of those who organised it. had to push away organising company sports club events, earning more. did not turn up for terry fox, wasting $30. couldn't even find the time/energy to go collect the race pack.

my dslr lies untouched in the case for a month now, my guitar much longer. fren wanted to meet up last minute on a weekend. no, i replied. i need a break from everything. i'm part of everything? he snapped/whined/quizzed (by sms, can't tell tone). Yes. Everything is part of Everything.

don;t get me wrong - i still love what i'm doing. it's still interesting, i have a fun colleague, an encouraging boss and i will not let myself snap from being stretched - i want to be able to take on bigger roles, more tasks. but so much of my energy is being eaten up, i need another break, for a chance to rejuvenate and refocus.

so north vietnam, here i come!!