It's almost 2am - its late and i gotta sleep tml. but i can't before the last 6 mins of Heroes episode 6 are done streaming and i'm done watching. so i come here.
been really busy and rattled these past few days - 1st the sianness of going back to work after a long CNY break, the multitude and amount of stuff i needed to do. then that so many ppl to meet with over the wkend, as opposed to the lack of during the 1st 2 wkends of the mth. really stretched my time.
this, coupled with that excitement, that anxiety which characterises the looming of every adventure - anxiety that i may hv forgotten abt something or left something undone. and the excitement which makes me forget abt these somethings. that restlessness which gives me an unproductive buzz in my head and my heart.
ok heroes ep 6 is done. gdnite.
Monday, February 26, 2007
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Nothing but Sleep
i think sleep is a waste of time. and not only that, i can't seem to tell how much i need.
if i don't sleep enuff, i'll be falling asleep at work if it's too boring. or i'll be taking naps and wasting time in the afternoon. if i dun get enuff sleep, i can't think. i'm sure its the same for everyone.
if i sleep too much until next morning/afternoon, i get a migraine, and will have to spend the rest of the day sleeping it off. whole wkend gone. (there's no such thing as too much sleep on a working day)
like today. i slept too late, at 4am watching vcds (wat else is there to do during CNY?). woke up 12nn, still feeling ok. took a badly needed nap at 4pm. woke up 5.30pm with stabbing pain in my eye. or eye socket. cold sweat. shivering - too cold for the fan but too hot without it. pain pain pain in the head. room wobbly. no, didn't eat magic mushrooms. too pain to continue sleeping. took painkiller, took coffee.
and slowly, slowly, things got back to almost normal in half hr.
i hate sleep. it's a complete waste of time when i can be doing other stuff. but sleep is essential, else i can't think. right now 6hrs is survival, 7hrs is total rest. anything more on a wkday night is downright unnatural. wkends if i wake up later than 12.30 pm, welcome to migraine metropolis.
and frankly, i want a reason to get up early on wkends - so that i dun waste them.
i just might be getting my wish soon. of my own doing, of coz. since when do things simply happen by accident?
if i don't sleep enuff, i'll be falling asleep at work if it's too boring. or i'll be taking naps and wasting time in the afternoon. if i dun get enuff sleep, i can't think. i'm sure its the same for everyone.
if i sleep too much until next morning/afternoon, i get a migraine, and will have to spend the rest of the day sleeping it off. whole wkend gone. (there's no such thing as too much sleep on a working day)
like today. i slept too late, at 4am watching vcds (wat else is there to do during CNY?). woke up 12nn, still feeling ok. took a badly needed nap at 4pm. woke up 5.30pm with stabbing pain in my eye. or eye socket. cold sweat. shivering - too cold for the fan but too hot without it. pain pain pain in the head. room wobbly. no, didn't eat magic mushrooms. too pain to continue sleeping. took painkiller, took coffee.
and slowly, slowly, things got back to almost normal in half hr.
i hate sleep. it's a complete waste of time when i can be doing other stuff. but sleep is essential, else i can't think. right now 6hrs is survival, 7hrs is total rest. anything more on a wkday night is downright unnatural. wkends if i wake up later than 12.30 pm, welcome to migraine metropolis.
and frankly, i want a reason to get up early on wkends - so that i dun waste them.
i just might be getting my wish soon. of my own doing, of coz. since when do things simply happen by accident?
Sunday, February 18, 2007
Nothing on CNY
I want to write - but i dunno wat to say.
maybe coz its 5am and i'm tired.
maybe coz there's nothing to say.
there's nothing happening anyway.
i'm still at work - things are hectic but its nothing i can't handle. and i already spend most of my waking hours at it, i dun wanna talk abt it here too.
and on the other end, "nothing happened" too.
and i don't want to tok abt it either, coz there's nothing to tok abt.
frens-wise, some of them read this, so i shdn't say anything either. anyway wat's the point, they'll get pissed or upset and either way there's nothing i can do abt it.
just got a reply from my german friend, in response to my chinese new year greeting: "thanks a lot brother, we are wishing you a happy and healthy new year as well! gonna write ya soon my friend.:)"
now there's something to write abt. "brother". this is a guy who i knew for barely 5 days in singapore and opened up his house to me 1 day after he checked his email and realised i was in europe. he even left me his house key. he and his mum and sis made me wish i didn't cut short my trip and could impose on them more. this guy is definitely more than a friend to me.
back to nothing: nothing progresses - still slacking off exercise.
i guess that's it. i wanna sleep. happy chinese new year.
maybe coz its 5am and i'm tired.
maybe coz there's nothing to say.
there's nothing happening anyway.
i'm still at work - things are hectic but its nothing i can't handle. and i already spend most of my waking hours at it, i dun wanna talk abt it here too.
and on the other end, "nothing happened" too.
and i don't want to tok abt it either, coz there's nothing to tok abt.
frens-wise, some of them read this, so i shdn't say anything either. anyway wat's the point, they'll get pissed or upset and either way there's nothing i can do abt it.
just got a reply from my german friend, in response to my chinese new year greeting: "thanks a lot brother, we are wishing you a happy and healthy new year as well! gonna write ya soon my friend.:)"
now there's something to write abt. "brother". this is a guy who i knew for barely 5 days in singapore and opened up his house to me 1 day after he checked his email and realised i was in europe. he even left me his house key. he and his mum and sis made me wish i didn't cut short my trip and could impose on them more. this guy is definitely more than a friend to me.
back to nothing: nothing progresses - still slacking off exercise.
i guess that's it. i wanna sleep. happy chinese new year.
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Nothing Much
Nothing's been happening, so nothing to write about here. Everything's still the same... still procrastinating.
Work is getting funner... more hectic too. At least its more thrilling than wkends. So used to work I miss wearing a shirt and pants + leather shoes on wkends... almost went back this wkend, but procrastinated that as well.
Will take up proper blading lessons soon, so there shd be more to write abt here. prob after my Bali trip.
CNY coming. boring. Office toilets and lifts playing endless irritating CNY music. made the mistake of telling lunch buddies that I hate CNY music. now they remind me to listen when we take the lift.
Been given additional tasks at work besides from section i'm in... have to do write up on related business articles to the project mgr, and i'm grateful for it - else i won't read the business news at all. It's also a good sign they're putting this on me.
Going for a run tml... hope I'm fit enuff for agung end of the mth... and hope i'll write all abt it in ramblings. can't rem much abt frasers liao. hahahah
Other than that, nothing. much.
Work is getting funner... more hectic too. At least its more thrilling than wkends. So used to work I miss wearing a shirt and pants + leather shoes on wkends... almost went back this wkend, but procrastinated that as well.
Will take up proper blading lessons soon, so there shd be more to write abt here. prob after my Bali trip.
CNY coming. boring. Office toilets and lifts playing endless irritating CNY music. made the mistake of telling lunch buddies that I hate CNY music. now they remind me to listen when we take the lift.
Been given additional tasks at work besides from section i'm in... have to do write up on related business articles to the project mgr, and i'm grateful for it - else i won't read the business news at all. It's also a good sign they're putting this on me.
Going for a run tml... hope I'm fit enuff for agung end of the mth... and hope i'll write all abt it in ramblings. can't rem much abt frasers liao. hahahah
Other than that, nothing. much.
