it's one of the songs in Sugar Ray's 14:59 album, with me since 1999. Haven't listened to it for very long, so searched and pulled it out. coz this song seems so apt right now. plus, i like every song in the album, which is rare.
Things are falling apart. At work. in Feb 2007 i found my dream job. Data collection, analysis, presentation n recomendation; project work; and what i produce affects the way the company operates, whether in sg, or other SEA countries. Meaning i'm doing stuff that i like, and it makes a difference. with a nurturing, coaching boss who lives his life in a way i look up to (a rarity), and a caring, capable, chio colleague who made me see fireworks when she smiled.
a short 10 months into this dream job, and its starting to come apart. changes will be happening. it's not fair - i hvn't even had my dream job for 1 year. i was actually aiming for 2 yrs. but then of coz i'm painfully aware that life is never fair.
my boss told me that from now until mid feb, things will be intense. i predict up to march, and am mentally preparing myself for 12 hrs a day everyday for 2 mths. no need to make dinner appointments anymore. maybe weekends too. but no worries. i can handle whatever is thrown at me. bring it on. (haha)
Happy New Year.
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I once told her my reason for 'risky' mountain climbing, diving, backpacking trips: "I want to go close to the edge, so I can see how far the drop is." At that time I didn't know how encompassing that sentence would be.
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Sunday, December 02, 2007
I Run Because...
...I jog too slowly.
For the 3rd year in a row, I show my distaste at our oh-so-efficient and crowded-beyond-capacity public transport by going on foot what normal people would go by bus or mrt.
and worse - after 10km, i end up barely 500m from where i started. That's futility for you.
And amazingly, I feel good about it, and more so today.
Coz according to the timing at the finish line, i completed 10km in under an hour.
This despite training less than last year prior to the run - i guess it was due to me deciding not to ever put 2 feet on the ground at the same time thru out the 10km.
With very, very few girls to distract me along the route, my mp3 player helped instead.
And I think i'm getting bored of the 10km route. So what's next?
21km? Double the pain? Double the intensity? Double the insanity? Double the futility?
For the 3rd year in a row, I show my distaste at our oh-so-efficient and crowded-beyond-capacity public transport by going on foot what normal people would go by bus or mrt.
and worse - after 10km, i end up barely 500m from where i started. That's futility for you.
And amazingly, I feel good about it, and more so today.
Coz according to the timing at the finish line, i completed 10km in under an hour.
This despite training less than last year prior to the run - i guess it was due to me deciding not to ever put 2 feet on the ground at the same time thru out the 10km.
With very, very few girls to distract me along the route, my mp3 player helped instead.
And I think i'm getting bored of the 10km route. So what's next?
21km? Double the pain? Double the intensity? Double the insanity? Double the futility?
Everything Happens in 24 Hrs
Sat 1 Dec, 0900hrs: Have a company excursion to Terminal and Vessel. Signed up and of all days, kena the day we have D & D. I decide not to protest as Assistant Manager who set up the excursions is not known to listen to others, especially if Asian and lower rank. Personally feel it's a chore even to say 'hi' to him. Proceeded to grumble to other colleagues and found many who feel the same way about him - feel better somewhat.
The excursion itself as fun - mostly coz the ppl who went were. needless to say, afore-mentioned arrogant racist did not go for this trip, presumably so that he would enjoy the D & D.
Sat 1 Dec, 1600hrs: Excursion ends at office. Have to run up to desk to get documents, which I plan to read tomorrow. Grab a coffee since I'm there. Have to rush home, shower, change, and get to D & D by 6pm.
Sat 1 Dec, 1820hrs: Reach D & D venue just in time to know wat's going on and I'm in the thick of it - telling ppl to drop lucky draw numbers into the bowl, giving parking coupons, collecting money, hastily scribbling who paid how much. A very messy crowd - no one knew what to do and we at the reception table just made it up as we went along.
Sat 1 Dec, 1945hrs: The doors to the dinner hall haven't been opened for long and I'm outside taking a breather. I almost do not want to go in. Colleague calls: Are you joining us? The food is here. OK then.
Sat 1 Dec, 2120hrs: I am very, very bored. Silly games are played, loud music is played, conversations that do not involve me, and I'm tired. I just keep asking for water in my glass.
Sat 1 Dec, 2230hrs: After a few photos, I say goodbye, and my colleagues wish me well for StanChart tomorrow. I feel I owe it to myself to get rested and skip the fun, and so I leave early.
Sat 1 Dec, 2255hrs: I'm still waiting for the damn bus. I start to wonder if I'm really prepared. Then I realise that question is no longer relevant. Tomorrow I will start running. Only then will I worry how I will finish.
StanChart 10km Run will be Sun 2 Dec, hopefully 0715hrs to 0815hrs. My aim is to make it sub 1 hr but have made some costly decisions over the past few months.
- Chose rest over running for whole of September when I had that draining audit for whole SEA region.
- Did not stick to 2-month running plan for Oct and Nov.
- Gave in to change Vietnam trip to just 2 crucial weeks from the 10km run.
Everything happens in 24 hrs.
The excursion itself as fun - mostly coz the ppl who went were. needless to say, afore-mentioned arrogant racist did not go for this trip, presumably so that he would enjoy the D & D.
Sat 1 Dec, 1600hrs: Excursion ends at office. Have to run up to desk to get documents, which I plan to read tomorrow. Grab a coffee since I'm there. Have to rush home, shower, change, and get to D & D by 6pm.
Sat 1 Dec, 1820hrs: Reach D & D venue just in time to know wat's going on and I'm in the thick of it - telling ppl to drop lucky draw numbers into the bowl, giving parking coupons, collecting money, hastily scribbling who paid how much. A very messy crowd - no one knew what to do and we at the reception table just made it up as we went along.
Sat 1 Dec, 1945hrs: The doors to the dinner hall haven't been opened for long and I'm outside taking a breather. I almost do not want to go in. Colleague calls: Are you joining us? The food is here. OK then.
Sat 1 Dec, 2120hrs: I am very, very bored. Silly games are played, loud music is played, conversations that do not involve me, and I'm tired. I just keep asking for water in my glass.
Sat 1 Dec, 2230hrs: After a few photos, I say goodbye, and my colleagues wish me well for StanChart tomorrow. I feel I owe it to myself to get rested and skip the fun, and so I leave early.
Sat 1 Dec, 2255hrs: I'm still waiting for the damn bus. I start to wonder if I'm really prepared. Then I realise that question is no longer relevant. Tomorrow I will start running. Only then will I worry how I will finish.
StanChart 10km Run will be Sun 2 Dec, hopefully 0715hrs to 0815hrs. My aim is to make it sub 1 hr but have made some costly decisions over the past few months.
- Chose rest over running for whole of September when I had that draining audit for whole SEA region.
- Did not stick to 2-month running plan for Oct and Nov.
- Gave in to change Vietnam trip to just 2 crucial weeks from the 10km run.
Everything happens in 24 hrs.
