4th November 2006

Currently Playing: My Zero7 CD - last yr's birthday present

1 year has passed. of coz it always seems fast on hindsight. but it's due to the things that u didn't attend to that you realise time really creeps up quickly. Just before writing this, i took out this CD to play as I type. i opened the cover and - HORRORS!! the CD wasn't there~!! horrors coz i immediately realised i must hv left it in the CD player for months... and sure enuff, there it was, with a thick outer ring of dust testament to my neglect.

I play the CD now coz i read my previous yr's birthday entries... and i realise some things still haven't changed. dunno - maybe its coz i've been leaving the CDs in the players for too long.

My occupational environment has changed considerably, thank goodness. 1 year ago i was mugging and wondering when it would ever end. Now, it finally has. and to make it sweeter, i just filled out the graduate employment survey this afternoon, and i didn't have anything good to say about how the education received helps me in my current job. pooi ah.

Although the pay isn't much, i can't stand ppl moaning abt how low their pay is, so i shall not do the same. can't complain anyway - the work is fun, the colleagues are nice, and the coffee is excellent. plus the potential opportunities i have been given are astounding. when the time is right, the only thing that can stop me would be my inability to fight for it. so for now, i shall learn fast, work hard, lay low, stay humble, and be nice.

Frens-wise, things hvn't changed much at all. 1 grp celebrated with me, while another went missing - disappointing my "high expectations", like last yr. hahah well i wldn't say i expected, just hoped. maybe its too early to pass judgement, surprises may come later... but then again i might be saying this coz of hope.

but anyway, this is the end of initiative liao. i don't need recognition, i just want cooperation, and hope for reciprocation. but since i get neither more often than not, i'm too tired to continue. received an sms from one earlier: "we all appreciate you and wish you all the best..." don't tell me. show me.

maybe i'm a little low coz of that impt issue as well. it is not the only one, but it is impt. nothing the whole day. no upcoming plans either. i don't know wat happened. i guess if i don't hear anything soon, i will hv to do something abt it.

else, things are ok. out-of-work hours are picking up. family is very fine. work is enjoyable. frens are here and there. life is ok. just ok, nothing more. i wld think it sucked long enuff to warrant something better than ok.

oh well. thanx go out to:
- zz, girl, qz, yb, alw, sop, leilei, shanz, for jioing me for dinner, coffee, ktv. long time since i had so much fun.
- misa, zow, an old fren, my brudder, my YEP nurse, kok, bowl, and consultant (in order of timing) for birthdae smses. zow and girl for birthdae nicks as well.
- ally, for sms and last min damn shiok jap dinner treat
- my brother for remembering even though he's too busy to come home for 2 days.
- my parents, for obvious reasons and more.

i have much to be thankful for, that i agree. but i just want the missing foundation piece. then everything else on top is just a bonus.

i'm missing that piece, in more ways than one.