I need to:
- blog abt fraser's hill and stuff that's bothering me
- do research on bali
- do research on KK
- do research on insurance
- exercise
- practice guitar
and i went to www.procrastinus.com, which told me a lot of what I already know.
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Your score is
66 out of a possible 100
Above Average Procrastinator
You rank between the top 25% and 10% in terms of procrastination. That is, when it comes to putting things off, you often do so even though you know you shouldn’t. Likely, you are more free-spirited and spontaneous than most. Probably, your work doesn’t engage you as much as you would like or perhaps you are surrounded by easily available and more pleasant temptations. These temptations may initially seem rewarding, but in the longer-term, you see many of them as time-wasters. Though you likely often still get your work done, there is probably a lot of last minute panicking and unwanted stress. You may want to reduce what procrastination you do commit. If so, here are three tips that have been shown to work:
Goal Setting
This is one of the most established ways of moving forward on your plans. Take any project you are presently procrastinating and break it down into individual steps. Each of these steps should have the following three aspects. First, they should be somewhat challenging though achievable for you. It is more satisfying to accomplish a challenge. Second, they should be proximal, that is you can achieve them fairly soon, preferable today or over the next few days. Third, they should be specific, that is you know exactly when you have accomplished them. If you can visualize in your mind what you should do, even better.
Stimulus Control
This method has also been well tested and is very successful. What you need is a single place that you do your work and nothing else. Essentially, you need an office, though many students have a favorite desk at a library. For stimulus control to work best, the office or desk should be free of any signs of temptation or easily available distractions that might pull you away (e.g., no games, no chit-chat, no web-surfing). If you need a break, that is fine, but make sure you have it someplace at least a few minutes distant, preferably outside of the building itself. If you are unwilling to take the time to get there, acknowledge that you likely don’t need the break.
Routines
Routines are difficult to get into but in the end, this is often our aim. Things are much easier to do when we get into a habit of them, whether it is work, exercise, or errands. If you schedule some of those tasks you are presently procrastinating upon so that they occur on a regular schedule, they become easier. Start your routine slowly, something to which you can easily commit. Eventually, like brushing your teeth, it will likely become something you just do, not taking much effort at all. At this point, you might add to your routine, again always keeping your overall level of effort at a moderate to low level. Importantly, when you fall off your routine, inevitable with sickness or the unexpected, get back on it as soon as possible. Your routine gets stronger every time your follow it. It also gets weaker every time you don’t.
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OK, copied and pasted, now back to insurance research.
Right after a round of FarCry.
Promise.
Saturday, January 27, 2007
Sunday, January 21, 2007
Exciting Life
Haven't posted anything for 2 wks coz my life is oh-so-exciting. decided to post something so u guys wld not come here in vain everyday.
Last week was lagi exciting. went out everyday after work. running to Parkway Parade and back is considered going out. So is guitar lessons. So is trying to confusedly explain Citadels to 3 sleepy frens.
So to compensate, stayed at home whole of Saturday. don't remember wat i did but i probably slept thru the day. On Sunday learnt wat to do if my car gets hit in the back by an old man who refused to admit he was the driver. guess squid wun hv to fork out a cent (?)
Only went out w a fren once the whole of this past week. nice to know tt we can always pick up where we left off. but also nice to know tt we no longer argue who's turn it is to buy bread. and nice of veggie to be so reassuring.
Treadmill has spoilt - skiing machine is a joke. will run to ecp tml. At least yesterday was nice. hung out with a buddy with good news - which made me slightly jealous. new stages in life - but of coz i'm happy for her too. i just dun show it tt much coz i'm slightly jealous. just slightly.
Had a nice, simple supper. also got good got bad. time will tell.
meanwhile, time to spread myself again. bit of coz not as thin as butter, scraped on too much bread.
Last week was lagi exciting. went out everyday after work. running to Parkway Parade and back is considered going out. So is guitar lessons. So is trying to confusedly explain Citadels to 3 sleepy frens.
So to compensate, stayed at home whole of Saturday. don't remember wat i did but i probably slept thru the day. On Sunday learnt wat to do if my car gets hit in the back by an old man who refused to admit he was the driver. guess squid wun hv to fork out a cent (?)
Only went out w a fren once the whole of this past week. nice to know tt we can always pick up where we left off. but also nice to know tt we no longer argue who's turn it is to buy bread. and nice of veggie to be so reassuring.
Treadmill has spoilt - skiing machine is a joke. will run to ecp tml. At least yesterday was nice. hung out with a buddy with good news - which made me slightly jealous. new stages in life - but of coz i'm happy for her too. i just dun show it tt much coz i'm slightly jealous. just slightly.
Had a nice, simple supper. also got good got bad. time will tell.
meanwhile, time to spread myself again. bit of coz not as thin as butter, scraped on too much bread.
Sunday, January 07, 2007
Talking Cock X'mas Carols
OK... i know a bit late for X'mas carols, but it's been a while since I went talkingcock.com and these are very good!! so share with everyone here...
SHU MIN THE ELITE SCHOLAR(sung to the tune of ‘Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer’)
Shu Min the elite scholar
Had a very atas blog
She had a real at-ti-tude
Very like a female dog
All of the average persons
She would laugh and call them names
She’d tell them to get out of
Her elite, uncaring face
Then one day she kena flamed
And Daddy had to say
“Shu Min, your thoughts are alright,
You just haven’t been polite.”
This was si beh revealing
Of the snobby PAP
Shu Min’s papa the MP
Really should be history!
Shu Min’s papa the MP
Really should be hi-sto-ry!
GST IS COMING TO TOWN (Updated)(to the tune of ‘Santa Claus is Coming to Town’)
You better buy now
You better now buy
You better shop now
I’m telling you why
GST is coming to town
It will increase your bills
By seven percent
Courtesy of the go-overnment
GST is coming to town
It’ll hit you when you’re shopping
Whether food or household wares
It’s just no use complaining ‘cause
Those elitists just don’t care
So! You better buy now
You better now buy
You better shop now
I’m telling you why
GST is coming to town
more X'mas carols at http://www.talkingcock.com/html/article.php?sid=2142&mode=thread&order=0
SHU MIN THE ELITE SCHOLAR(sung to the tune of ‘Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer’)
Shu Min the elite scholar
Had a very atas blog
She had a real at-ti-tude
Very like a female dog
All of the average persons
She would laugh and call them names
She’d tell them to get out of
Her elite, uncaring face
Then one day she kena flamed
And Daddy had to say
“Shu Min, your thoughts are alright,
You just haven’t been polite.”
This was si beh revealing
Of the snobby PAP
Shu Min’s papa the MP
Really should be history!
Shu Min’s papa the MP
Really should be hi-sto-ry!
GST IS COMING TO TOWN (Updated)(to the tune of ‘Santa Claus is Coming to Town’)
You better buy now
You better now buy
You better shop now
I’m telling you why
GST is coming to town
It will increase your bills
By seven percent
Courtesy of the go-overnment
GST is coming to town
It’ll hit you when you’re shopping
Whether food or household wares
It’s just no use complaining ‘cause
Those elitists just don’t care
So! You better buy now
You better now buy
You better shop now
I’m telling you why
GST is coming to town
more X'mas carols at http://www.talkingcock.com/html/article.php?sid=2142&mode=thread&order=0
Same Old New Year
We countdown the last remaining seconds of the old year, wanting them to quickly pass so we can cross over to the new year. And when we do, we shout out joyously "Happy New Year!" and do silly things like drink alcohol and sing songs which titles aren't in english and english lyrics we don't understand (ie. auld lang syne). Why?
Because, we all want the new year to be better than the old one. It will be. And best of all, nothing is needed of us. All we have to do is count backwards from 10 to 1, and *poof!* A New Year! all the bad stuff that happened last year has been wiped off the slate! This New Year, new and clean, brings plenty to cheer about. plenty of time to set things right, to do what you want to do. hooray.
Of coz, didn't the old year start with the best of intentions as well? and what has changed? It's the old year all over again. You write down the same unfulfilled resolutions like the year before, which seem so very attainable, since there's 1 whole year to go. Will you look at them 11 months later and think to yourself "darn."?
For me, as usual, the more things change, the more they remain the same. The only difference is I'm working instead of studying, wearing shirt & tie instead of t-shirt & berms. Well ok, at least i'm happier working.
But I still need to run frequently, not only when Stanchart is coming.
I still need to work on my photography skills, hopefully more than when I go overseas.
I still need to make myself clean my room at least once a month.
I still need to be more appreciative, more thinking, more helpful, more patient.
I still need to be less late, less procrastinating.
Seeing that it's Jan 7th, I won't get full marks on that last one. Same as last year.
Happy Old Year.
Because, we all want the new year to be better than the old one. It will be. And best of all, nothing is needed of us. All we have to do is count backwards from 10 to 1, and *poof!* A New Year! all the bad stuff that happened last year has been wiped off the slate! This New Year, new and clean, brings plenty to cheer about. plenty of time to set things right, to do what you want to do. hooray.
Of coz, didn't the old year start with the best of intentions as well? and what has changed? It's the old year all over again. You write down the same unfulfilled resolutions like the year before, which seem so very attainable, since there's 1 whole year to go. Will you look at them 11 months later and think to yourself "darn."?
For me, as usual, the more things change, the more they remain the same. The only difference is I'm working instead of studying, wearing shirt & tie instead of t-shirt & berms. Well ok, at least i'm happier working.
But I still need to run frequently, not only when Stanchart is coming.
I still need to work on my photography skills, hopefully more than when I go overseas.
I still need to make myself clean my room at least once a month.
I still need to be more appreciative, more thinking, more helpful, more patient.
I still need to be less late, less procrastinating.
Seeing that it's Jan 7th, I won't get full marks on that last one. Same as last year.
Happy Old Year.
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
Fraser's Hill - 15 Years Later
Just went to Fraser's Hill over X'mas wkend. The trip was really fun - maybe thanx to our cheerfulness. almost everyone we encountered were nice and friendly... maybe bcoz we were. and i think that was the best part - better than the muddy treks and cool air, or the endless bus rides. after 7 -8hrs on 5 buses, i'll nv think i spend too much time on a bus again.
but the trip's real "value" became evident to me only as i spent more time on the hills... i was visiting the same places i had been 15 yrs ago - when i was young, memories were fuzzy, and when my parents were young too. they also were there with my brother, before i came along, 28 yrs ago.
as i walked the same roads i had walked before, and the same roads my parents did as a young married couple, i realised that once passed, things will nv be the same again. 15 yrs had flown by so fast, and I would nv again be that young spoilt brat who didn't like our run down bungalow and wanted to ride horses round and round the paddock every day. and i don't know if my parents still have that energy to explore down every road in Fraser's Hill like they did 28 yrs ago.
We will nv be that young family again, that I know. But there are still more things to look forward to - hopefully, new additions to the family. new milestones, new excitements. and always that same affection for one another.
Time has flown by, and time will still fly by. I will bring us to Fraser's Hill again, if not next yr then the following. If anything, just for old times' sake.
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Travel stories at http://rockies-roamings.blogspot.com
but the trip's real "value" became evident to me only as i spent more time on the hills... i was visiting the same places i had been 15 yrs ago - when i was young, memories were fuzzy, and when my parents were young too. they also were there with my brother, before i came along, 28 yrs ago.
as i walked the same roads i had walked before, and the same roads my parents did as a young married couple, i realised that once passed, things will nv be the same again. 15 yrs had flown by so fast, and I would nv again be that young spoilt brat who didn't like our run down bungalow and wanted to ride horses round and round the paddock every day. and i don't know if my parents still have that energy to explore down every road in Fraser's Hill like they did 28 yrs ago.
We will nv be that young family again, that I know. But there are still more things to look forward to - hopefully, new additions to the family. new milestones, new excitements. and always that same affection for one another.
Time has flown by, and time will still fly by. I will bring us to Fraser's Hill again, if not next yr then the following. If anything, just for old times' sake.
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Travel stories at http://rockies-roamings.blogspot.com
Sunday, December 17, 2006
Nothing Interesting In Particular
How to write abt anything when you dunno wat's going on?
so busy? y does it always happen? but then again sometimes it turns around when i least expect it.
but then again it may not.
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department x'mas party was an anticlimax. among the 30-40% who didn't win any prizes, food wasn't fantastic. just that the entertainment was quite good. once the last prize was given out, the place emptied rather quickly. all that were left was the commercial side girls dancing to "tetno" music.
got pushed onto the dance floor by one of the managers, and in response to the prospect of gyrating to lousy music was a singular thot - these are the people i work with!! and slowly inched my way back into the shadows. time to head home.
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the wkend passed too quickly. supposed to go kayaking but didn't - so wasted the saturday away. the gift exchange wasn't so exciting as previous years. maybe coz i had less stake in it - being just a participant. anyway we seemed to have parted faster than we met up.
today did errands, and whiled the day away. not too exciting either, hence the mood of this post. fallen asleep already? i'm going to. *yawn
at least it sets the exciting stage for next wkend. a destination but no direct way to go there. an amazing race style adventure, trekking and photo-taking (if my camera chooses to work), then amazing race again. shd be fun.
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that's it. my life now is mostly work. i still wake up early even though its a wkend, and i get headaches if i sleep too much. and... wtf, this post is sssssoooo boring i can't bring myself to continue anymore.
so busy? y does it always happen? but then again sometimes it turns around when i least expect it.
but then again it may not.
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department x'mas party was an anticlimax. among the 30-40% who didn't win any prizes, food wasn't fantastic. just that the entertainment was quite good. once the last prize was given out, the place emptied rather quickly. all that were left was the commercial side girls dancing to "tetno" music.
got pushed onto the dance floor by one of the managers, and in response to the prospect of gyrating to lousy music was a singular thot - these are the people i work with!! and slowly inched my way back into the shadows. time to head home.
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the wkend passed too quickly. supposed to go kayaking but didn't - so wasted the saturday away. the gift exchange wasn't so exciting as previous years. maybe coz i had less stake in it - being just a participant. anyway we seemed to have parted faster than we met up.
today did errands, and whiled the day away. not too exciting either, hence the mood of this post. fallen asleep already? i'm going to. *yawn
at least it sets the exciting stage for next wkend. a destination but no direct way to go there. an amazing race style adventure, trekking and photo-taking (if my camera chooses to work), then amazing race again. shd be fun.
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that's it. my life now is mostly work. i still wake up early even though its a wkend, and i get headaches if i sleep too much. and... wtf, this post is sssssoooo boring i can't bring myself to continue anymore.
Saturday, December 09, 2006
Marathon-Photos.com
courtesy of Marathon-Photos.com.
This, is a photo of me after I had Ultimate Delight for breakfast at Cafe Cartel,
caught by a cameraman on the opposite side.
Just kidding. 2nd photo was stanchart 2005. If you notice, I wore the same shorts and same shoes for both runs. Which goes to show one thing:
Wear White: Lean & Mean
Wear Purple: Fat & Gay
plus, wearing white makes you look tanned. Lesson of the day - Wear White!
Lesson for Advanced Students: remember to suck in when you know there's cameras!
Sunday, December 03, 2006
Another Year, Another Medal
I might make this running thing a habit.
6hrs after i first started running, my clothes are still wet. amazing!
oh wait... yah i was caught in the rain on the way back. got a headache after the run... dunno its due to the grotesque tasting berroca or the over exertion. paiseh ally, can't watch the show. and i dunno wat damage my legs went thru... guess i'll know when i go to work tml limping... then my colleagues will ask wat happened to me, and i can show off that i went for stan chart.
hey it was only 10km... but at least i nv stopped. achieved a whimsical comment i made a yr ago (see Dec 05). but it was horrible. I'm starting to like running, but only after i'm done with it.
reached slightly late, wld hv been later if not for my lovely neighbour who drove me and her 2 girls for the fun run. (only the girls went for the fun run, i didn't. really.) started at the back of the pack, and at a fast pace. but when i thot i shd hv run 5km, i saw it was ony 3. dang. with no full bladder like last yr, i didn't hv much motivation to go fast after tt.
the middle is a blur. all i did was to think to myself "don't think, just go." then "OK go" then the treadmill song comes up. waved at cheering ppl to distract myself. spilled 1/2 the paper cup at every water point. choked on a sip of water. it was all guys this time, so nothing much to look at.
really slowed down in the CBD area. picked up a bit now and then, but it was only at the last part, near SCC & the concert hall where i tried to feebly sprint. and this time i kept my head up, in preparation for the army of photographers. last yr i concentrated on running and kept my head down, so all my photos on the website were of the top of my head. dang. just realised i shd hv sucked in my stomach too. (note to self for next yr)
yay. 1st time in my life i ever ran non stop of 10km. but taking the bus wld hv been easier though.
21km next yr? well... no promises. see wat happens until next july.
need to sleep. may update on previous weeks where i missed out - been too busy doing nothing. may not.
6hrs after i first started running, my clothes are still wet. amazing!
oh wait... yah i was caught in the rain on the way back. got a headache after the run... dunno its due to the grotesque tasting berroca or the over exertion. paiseh ally, can't watch the show. and i dunno wat damage my legs went thru... guess i'll know when i go to work tml limping... then my colleagues will ask wat happened to me, and i can show off that i went for stan chart.
hey it was only 10km... but at least i nv stopped. achieved a whimsical comment i made a yr ago (see Dec 05). but it was horrible. I'm starting to like running, but only after i'm done with it.
reached slightly late, wld hv been later if not for my lovely neighbour who drove me and her 2 girls for the fun run. (only the girls went for the fun run, i didn't. really.) started at the back of the pack, and at a fast pace. but when i thot i shd hv run 5km, i saw it was ony 3. dang. with no full bladder like last yr, i didn't hv much motivation to go fast after tt.
the middle is a blur. all i did was to think to myself "don't think, just go." then "OK go" then the treadmill song comes up. waved at cheering ppl to distract myself. spilled 1/2 the paper cup at every water point. choked on a sip of water. it was all guys this time, so nothing much to look at.
really slowed down in the CBD area. picked up a bit now and then, but it was only at the last part, near SCC & the concert hall where i tried to feebly sprint. and this time i kept my head up, in preparation for the army of photographers. last yr i concentrated on running and kept my head down, so all my photos on the website were of the top of my head. dang. just realised i shd hv sucked in my stomach too. (note to self for next yr)
yay. 1st time in my life i ever ran non stop of 10km. but taking the bus wld hv been easier though.
21km next yr? well... no promises. see wat happens until next july.
need to sleep. may update on previous weeks where i missed out - been too busy doing nothing. may not.
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Disgusted
So after all that talk about bridging the income gap, who's going to pay for all the poor ppl to catch up to a higher income level? (as opposed to making the rich give more money and thus driving the rich indons, chinamen, overpaid ang moh expats, and senior member of the community away to greener pastures)
Of coz, the poor themselves! what genius! we raise the consumption tax so it looks like everyone will kena. poor ppl or rich ppl, also hv to eat wat.
but. a consumption tax is a regressive tax. the poor will pay proportionally more. lemme illustrate.
Every mth has 30 days. and how much you pay for food = how much you pay tax.
Poor man: earns $1000/mth, eats $2 economical rice every lunch and dinner, $1 for breakfast. no drinks. spends $5 x 30 = $150 on food a mth. 15% of his income.
Rich man: earns $5000/mth, eats $5 fast food every meal, which includes drinks. spends $15 x 30 = $450 on food a mth. less than 10% of his income.
See?
public transport fares also go up. who takes public transport? definitely not those rich who can afford cars.
and we never have any say in it. we just keep Paying And Paying. but don't worry. we'll all get CashBack Rewards in 4-5 yrs, and we'll all forget abt this little episode.
Of coz, the poor themselves! what genius! we raise the consumption tax so it looks like everyone will kena. poor ppl or rich ppl, also hv to eat wat.
but. a consumption tax is a regressive tax. the poor will pay proportionally more. lemme illustrate.
Every mth has 30 days. and how much you pay for food = how much you pay tax.
Poor man: earns $1000/mth, eats $2 economical rice every lunch and dinner, $1 for breakfast. no drinks. spends $5 x 30 = $150 on food a mth. 15% of his income.
Rich man: earns $5000/mth, eats $5 fast food every meal, which includes drinks. spends $15 x 30 = $450 on food a mth. less than 10% of his income.
See?
public transport fares also go up. who takes public transport? definitely not those rich who can afford cars.
and we never have any say in it. we just keep Paying And Paying. but don't worry. we'll all get CashBack Rewards in 4-5 yrs, and we'll all forget abt this little episode.
Sunday, November 12, 2006
Meat High
Why get high on drugs, when you can get high on MEAT?!?!?
went to carnivore w vj for birthday dinner. shiokest meal i had this yr!!
for those of u who dunno, there's a salad bar, and the chefs (i think) will come round with HUGE skewered hunks of beef/pork/lamb/chicken meat/pineapple, rows of sausages/chicken hearts/bread, and whether or not they slice some of it on ur plate with their sharp shiny short swords depends on whether ur little paper disc on the table says "yes, please" or "no thank you" - which sometimes doesn't work coz u change ur mind upon seeing the succulent lamb or juicy pineapple that goes so well with the honey baked ham coming ur way.
i ate sssssoooooo much that i felt like a xmas turkey... one false movement and i wld explode and my meaty stuffings wld fly all over the restaurant. we sat there and chatted (i.e. stalled) for a good half hr before i took a few morsels of fruit and cocktail onions/olives before throwing in the napkin.
then, standing up and walking out to the toilet, i experienced wat vj warned me abt - getting stoned. watever blood my body cld spare all rushed to disgest all the shiok-shiok meat... leaving my brain with less to work with. i cldn't work 100% straight, felt woozy, and things took longer to make sense.
- vj remarked the glass in the shop window was clean 3 times before i got it.
- i asked him twice whether we were taking the right train.
- at no point of time after the meal i was dictating where we were going. i was just following him blindly.
it felt mildly like the magic mushroom feeling - just without the hysterical laughter. even right now as i type this, the monitor is floating around. either due to the meat, or the morning's sailing, i'm not sure. it's also better than alcohol, coz u dun get the bitter taste nor the blood rush or headache. just that lovely floating feeling, the one that makes u wanna float out of ur 3rd storey window and peek into ur neighbour's, 30m across.
why drink expensive alcohol or take harmful drugs? just eat meat!! woohoo.......
went to carnivore w vj for birthday dinner. shiokest meal i had this yr!!
for those of u who dunno, there's a salad bar, and the chefs (i think) will come round with HUGE skewered hunks of beef/pork/lamb/chicken meat/pineapple, rows of sausages/chicken hearts/bread, and whether or not they slice some of it on ur plate with their sharp shiny short swords depends on whether ur little paper disc on the table says "yes, please" or "no thank you" - which sometimes doesn't work coz u change ur mind upon seeing the succulent lamb or juicy pineapple that goes so well with the honey baked ham coming ur way.
i ate sssssoooooo much that i felt like a xmas turkey... one false movement and i wld explode and my meaty stuffings wld fly all over the restaurant. we sat there and chatted (i.e. stalled) for a good half hr before i took a few morsels of fruit and cocktail onions/olives before throwing in the napkin.
then, standing up and walking out to the toilet, i experienced wat vj warned me abt - getting stoned. watever blood my body cld spare all rushed to disgest all the shiok-shiok meat... leaving my brain with less to work with. i cldn't work 100% straight, felt woozy, and things took longer to make sense.
- vj remarked the glass in the shop window was clean 3 times before i got it.
- i asked him twice whether we were taking the right train.
- at no point of time after the meal i was dictating where we were going. i was just following him blindly.
it felt mildly like the magic mushroom feeling - just without the hysterical laughter. even right now as i type this, the monitor is floating around. either due to the meat, or the morning's sailing, i'm not sure. it's also better than alcohol, coz u dun get the bitter taste nor the blood rush or headache. just that lovely floating feeling, the one that makes u wanna float out of ur 3rd storey window and peek into ur neighbour's, 30m across.
why drink expensive alcohol or take harmful drugs? just eat meat!! woohoo.......
Sunday, November 05, 2006
4th November 2006
Currently Playing: My Zero7 CD - last yr's birthday present
1 year has passed. of coz it always seems fast on hindsight. but it's due to the things that u didn't attend to that you realise time really creeps up quickly. Just before writing this, i took out this CD to play as I type. i opened the cover and - HORRORS!! the CD wasn't there~!! horrors coz i immediately realised i must hv left it in the CD player for months... and sure enuff, there it was, with a thick outer ring of dust testament to my neglect.
I play the CD now coz i read my previous yr's birthday entries... and i realise some things still haven't changed. dunno - maybe its coz i've been leaving the CDs in the players for too long.
My occupational environment has changed considerably, thank goodness. 1 year ago i was mugging and wondering when it would ever end. Now, it finally has. and to make it sweeter, i just filled out the graduate employment survey this afternoon, and i didn't have anything good to say about how the education received helps me in my current job. pooi ah.
Although the pay isn't much, i can't stand ppl moaning abt how low their pay is, so i shall not do the same. can't complain anyway - the work is fun, the colleagues are nice, and the coffee is excellent. plus the potential opportunities i have been given are astounding. when the time is right, the only thing that can stop me would be my inability to fight for it. so for now, i shall learn fast, work hard, lay low, stay humble, and be nice.
Frens-wise, things hvn't changed much at all. 1 grp celebrated with me, while another went missing - disappointing my "high expectations", like last yr. hahah well i wldn't say i expected, just hoped. maybe its too early to pass judgement, surprises may come later... but then again i might be saying this coz of hope.
but anyway, this is the end of initiative liao. i don't need recognition, i just want cooperation, and hope for reciprocation. but since i get neither more often than not, i'm too tired to continue. received an sms from one earlier: "we all appreciate you and wish you all the best..." don't tell me. show me.
maybe i'm a little low coz of that impt issue as well. it is not the only one, but it is impt. nothing the whole day. no upcoming plans either. i don't know wat happened. i guess if i don't hear anything soon, i will hv to do something abt it.
else, things are ok. out-of-work hours are picking up. family is very fine. work is enjoyable. frens are here and there. life is ok. just ok, nothing more. i wld think it sucked long enuff to warrant something better than ok.
oh well. thanx go out to:
- zz, girl, qz, yb, alw, sop, leilei, shanz, for jioing me for dinner, coffee, ktv. long time since i had so much fun.
- misa, zow, an old fren, my brudder, my YEP nurse, kok, bowl, and consultant (in order of timing) for birthdae smses. zow and girl for birthdae nicks as well.
- ally, for sms and last min damn shiok jap dinner treat
- my brother for remembering even though he's too busy to come home for 2 days.
- my parents, for obvious reasons and more.
i have much to be thankful for, that i agree. but i just want the missing foundation piece. then everything else on top is just a bonus.
i'm missing that piece, in more ways than one.
1 year has passed. of coz it always seems fast on hindsight. but it's due to the things that u didn't attend to that you realise time really creeps up quickly. Just before writing this, i took out this CD to play as I type. i opened the cover and - HORRORS!! the CD wasn't there~!! horrors coz i immediately realised i must hv left it in the CD player for months... and sure enuff, there it was, with a thick outer ring of dust testament to my neglect.
I play the CD now coz i read my previous yr's birthday entries... and i realise some things still haven't changed. dunno - maybe its coz i've been leaving the CDs in the players for too long.
My occupational environment has changed considerably, thank goodness. 1 year ago i was mugging and wondering when it would ever end. Now, it finally has. and to make it sweeter, i just filled out the graduate employment survey this afternoon, and i didn't have anything good to say about how the education received helps me in my current job. pooi ah.
Although the pay isn't much, i can't stand ppl moaning abt how low their pay is, so i shall not do the same. can't complain anyway - the work is fun, the colleagues are nice, and the coffee is excellent. plus the potential opportunities i have been given are astounding. when the time is right, the only thing that can stop me would be my inability to fight for it. so for now, i shall learn fast, work hard, lay low, stay humble, and be nice.
Frens-wise, things hvn't changed much at all. 1 grp celebrated with me, while another went missing - disappointing my "high expectations", like last yr. hahah well i wldn't say i expected, just hoped. maybe its too early to pass judgement, surprises may come later... but then again i might be saying this coz of hope.
but anyway, this is the end of initiative liao. i don't need recognition, i just want cooperation, and hope for reciprocation. but since i get neither more often than not, i'm too tired to continue. received an sms from one earlier: "we all appreciate you and wish you all the best..." don't tell me. show me.
maybe i'm a little low coz of that impt issue as well. it is not the only one, but it is impt. nothing the whole day. no upcoming plans either. i don't know wat happened. i guess if i don't hear anything soon, i will hv to do something abt it.
else, things are ok. out-of-work hours are picking up. family is very fine. work is enjoyable. frens are here and there. life is ok. just ok, nothing more. i wld think it sucked long enuff to warrant something better than ok.
oh well. thanx go out to:
- zz, girl, qz, yb, alw, sop, leilei, shanz, for jioing me for dinner, coffee, ktv. long time since i had so much fun.
- misa, zow, an old fren, my brudder, my YEP nurse, kok, bowl, and consultant (in order of timing) for birthdae smses. zow and girl for birthdae nicks as well.
- ally, for sms and last min damn shiok jap dinner treat
- my brother for remembering even though he's too busy to come home for 2 days.
- my parents, for obvious reasons and more.
i have much to be thankful for, that i agree. but i just want the missing foundation piece. then everything else on top is just a bonus.
i'm missing that piece, in more ways than one.
Sunday, October 29, 2006
Health Fads and Night Life
I notice there's a fad going round these days... that it's UNcool to be UNhealthy. Now the way to impress others is to go rock climbing/wakeboarding/jogging/gyming/marathon running/east coast blading over the wkend.
Not that it's bad... it's good. but it gets on my nerves when, like mcdonald's, "it's what I do and what I eat". I'm sure I heard a collective GASP when at a recent introduction to other new colleagues, i mentioned i cannot get thru the day without 3 cups of coffee (we were all forced to say something abt ourselves).
Coffee seems to be the no-no, uncool drink of choice these days. People i meet at the pantry sometimes tell me they're trying not to drink so much coffee - too much caffeine. But it's just a fad - something everyone does at the moment to be "in". Coffee just happens to be the scapegoat this time. Coffee, and sleeping/waking up late, which i just found out over dinner w qi.
Why do i think it's a fad? if this Healthy Lifestyle kick is for real, then y doesn't it extend to other areas in life as well? Why is it that when I tell ppl I drink coffee, they hear "I'm hopelessly addicted to that horrible drug, caffeine", but when ppl say they go clubbing every week, others think "Wow! that guy/girl is sssooo cool/groovy/in/hip/happening!" and not "So he/she subjects his ears to loud, deafening music, lungs to second hand smoke, liver to burning alcohol, numbs his/her senses, squeezes in a crowd and opens him/herself to groping strangers (either applies to a girl or a guy in a faggot bar) every week... sad case"
OK, maybe it's coz these "clubs" (they used to be called discotheques rite? "clubs" referred to Country Clubs then) dun appeal to me almost as much as i love coffee, that's y i came up with this analogy. I happened to look at the newspaper and chanced upon halloween events held at discos and thot "maybe that cld be fun". but then i pictured myself in such a setting, and it didn't appeal to me that much. maybe coz of my past bad experiences.
if i were to attend a "nightlife event", i'd rather be in a place with no dance floor, just plenty of sofas. maybe like balaclava, or harry's. i wldn't fancy the alcohol much - it mainly just makes me fall asleep, not do stupid things. if i'm asleep, i wldn't be able to enjoy the good rock or jazz music that the live band are hopefully playing, so i wld rather the establishment serve good coffee, as well as the usual alcoholic drinks to cater to the conventional mainstream.
u know... someplace more sophisticated and where there's no funny business going around. where ppl go to enjoy good music and relax, not throw away social norms.
u guys know of other places like this? if not i'll hv to set up one myself. hahahha.
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anyway, enuff of nuahing over the wkend. next wkend onwards, things will get exciting. with or without company.
Not that it's bad... it's good. but it gets on my nerves when, like mcdonald's, "it's what I do and what I eat". I'm sure I heard a collective GASP when at a recent introduction to other new colleagues, i mentioned i cannot get thru the day without 3 cups of coffee (we were all forced to say something abt ourselves).
Coffee seems to be the no-no, uncool drink of choice these days. People i meet at the pantry sometimes tell me they're trying not to drink so much coffee - too much caffeine. But it's just a fad - something everyone does at the moment to be "in". Coffee just happens to be the scapegoat this time. Coffee, and sleeping/waking up late, which i just found out over dinner w qi.
Why do i think it's a fad? if this Healthy Lifestyle kick is for real, then y doesn't it extend to other areas in life as well? Why is it that when I tell ppl I drink coffee, they hear "I'm hopelessly addicted to that horrible drug, caffeine", but when ppl say they go clubbing every week, others think "Wow! that guy/girl is sssooo cool/groovy/in/hip/happening!" and not "So he/she subjects his ears to loud, deafening music, lungs to second hand smoke, liver to burning alcohol, numbs his/her senses, squeezes in a crowd and opens him/herself to groping strangers (either applies to a girl or a guy in a faggot bar) every week... sad case"
OK, maybe it's coz these "clubs" (they used to be called discotheques rite? "clubs" referred to Country Clubs then) dun appeal to me almost as much as i love coffee, that's y i came up with this analogy. I happened to look at the newspaper and chanced upon halloween events held at discos and thot "maybe that cld be fun". but then i pictured myself in such a setting, and it didn't appeal to me that much. maybe coz of my past bad experiences.
if i were to attend a "nightlife event", i'd rather be in a place with no dance floor, just plenty of sofas. maybe like balaclava, or harry's. i wldn't fancy the alcohol much - it mainly just makes me fall asleep, not do stupid things. if i'm asleep, i wldn't be able to enjoy the good rock or jazz music that the live band are hopefully playing, so i wld rather the establishment serve good coffee, as well as the usual alcoholic drinks to cater to the conventional mainstream.
u know... someplace more sophisticated and where there's no funny business going around. where ppl go to enjoy good music and relax, not throw away social norms.
u guys know of other places like this? if not i'll hv to set up one myself. hahahha.
===================================================================
anyway, enuff of nuahing over the wkend. next wkend onwards, things will get exciting. with or without company.
Sunday, October 22, 2006
Certified...
...Addicted to Coffee.
I'm starting to look forward to work partly coz of the coffee machine.
Rockie = Junkie.
I'm starting to look forward to work partly coz of the coffee machine.
Rockie = Junkie.
Friday, October 13, 2006
You Know You're Old When...
...after dinner, your colleague has cheng tng while you have a cup of kopi.
...you wonder whether you shd hv ate chin chow instead to cool off ur heatiness.
...you increase frequency from once a week on the treadmill to twice a week, and your knees start screaming blardy murder. oh, above all that screaming, they hurt too.
...the 30+ yr old mother of a small kid tells him, "Cannot go in, you see, UNCLE closing the gym oready."
oh well... here it goes again... something to watch to forget how old you are:
and my parents think i actually RUN on the treadmill...
...you wonder whether you shd hv ate chin chow instead to cool off ur heatiness.
...you increase frequency from once a week on the treadmill to twice a week, and your knees start screaming blardy murder. oh, above all that screaming, they hurt too.
...the 30+ yr old mother of a small kid tells him, "Cannot go in, you see, UNCLE closing the gym oready."
oh well... here it goes again... something to watch to forget how old you are:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CxeQN2GWAzw
and my parents think i actually RUN on the treadmill...
Saturday, October 07, 2006
MPz In Da House, Yo!
A bit late with this topic, but bear with me here.
Young, first term pappy MPs are performing hip hop dances at next yr's Chingay Parade. http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/233752/1/.html
You see? they really attracting talent. last time parliament only got miss singapore universe, only know how to stand there, act pretty and keep the backbenchers awake. Now they probably got hip-hop performances during interludes!! Now dat's talent, yo.
But u gotta wonder... how did they come up with this idea? maybe to connect wid da youth, they did a poll thingy, like so, yo.
Q: Would you like your newly (un)elected MP to
a) Make sure your precinct is upgraded as promised during the elections, or
b) Go down wid da hip-hop grooves and earn some street cred to git widdit, yo?
Or maybe due to the success of so much more TV reality voting as compared to actual ballot-slip voting, they changing the format of the elections? instead of the boring "GE2010" you'll have "MP Idol 2010" where hosts Kermit Singh and DearDaniel Ong (it wld be great if he really didn't have a mouth) spout endless nonsense to spur senseless bouts of frenzied SMS voting.
Of course, you have the judges, or rather, arbitrators in this format, who are chosen based on their skill to praise the untalented with uncomprehensible statements. (I didn't waste my time watching sg idol, so i can't quote anyone, just read from newspaper.)
but the most impt - the hordes of idol-less teenagers who have absolutely no clue about wat talent is, willing to spend entire allowances supporting any good looker, and have SMS-friendly thumbs guaranteed to out-SMS any sensible adult. then of coz they will get a higher score than a distinction of 66%!!!!
but of coz, this is all conjecture of future events. wat's more impt here is the present state - MPz gettin' jiggy wid it. Guess wid all dat bling, it wuz da next logical step 2take, yo.
So while the teenagers of today are gagging themselves over the MPz attempts at establishing a connection of some semblance, http://www.spug.net/showthread.php?t=87050, more grown up ppl like me have some concerns when we 1st saw it on the news. like:
WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!??!?!?!?!?!
we didn't (un)elect you to dance at chingay lor... we spent money to get foreign talent to come here and do the same thing, and better somemore. we (didn't) elect u to solve our country's problems... and there you are doing hip-hop?!?!?!?
I think in time to come, some of them will receive letters beseeching them to return to being actual MPs. below here is a sample letter you can use:
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Dear MP,
Recently I heard in the news that you and your colleagues in parliament are to perform dances at next year's Chingay Parade. I salute your efforts - it probably must take lots of time and energy to become to competent at something some of you have admitted you are not good at.
However, the upgrading works for my precinct, promised in the elections earlier this year, have still not been carried out - there have been no signs of any construction work done in my area.
Seeing that Chingay is so far away and you being so competent at your dance moves, why don't you skip a few practise sessions and carry out your promises? you could start by
a) help me repaint my leaky ceiling HDB takes no liability for even though they built the damn building
b) help me set up hidden CCTV cameras in my house to catch my maid swinging my kid around by the legs
c) get my upstairs neighbour to stop their weekly late night mahjong sessions
d) get my downstairs neighbour to stop her nightly karaoke sessions
e) catch my neighbourhood cat killer
I'm sure you can start practising your dance moves in Jan '07 and still give a great performance.
Yours sincerely,
A flabbergasted citizen.
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let's just all hope they start taking their serious positions seriously. itz so damn weird y'know wadyamean?. dey hang loose at da wrong times, like on national tv, and dey are so damn uptight when ppl criticise dem, yo.
Well, many of us found mrbrown humourous. even wid all dat bling, methinks its too late to git down widdit, yo?
I really really hope they stop all this nonsense.
yo.
Young, first term pappy MPs are performing hip hop dances at next yr's Chingay Parade. http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/233752/1/.html
You see? they really attracting talent. last time parliament only got miss singapore universe, only know how to stand there, act pretty and keep the backbenchers awake. Now they probably got hip-hop performances during interludes!! Now dat's talent, yo.
But u gotta wonder... how did they come up with this idea? maybe to connect wid da youth, they did a poll thingy, like so, yo.
Q: Would you like your newly (un)elected MP to
a) Make sure your precinct is upgraded as promised during the elections, or
b) Go down wid da hip-hop grooves and earn some street cred to git widdit, yo?
Or maybe due to the success of so much more TV reality voting as compared to actual ballot-slip voting, they changing the format of the elections? instead of the boring "GE2010" you'll have "MP Idol 2010" where hosts Kermit Singh and DearDaniel Ong (it wld be great if he really didn't have a mouth) spout endless nonsense to spur senseless bouts of frenzied SMS voting.
Of course, you have the judges, or rather, arbitrators in this format, who are chosen based on their skill to praise the untalented with uncomprehensible statements. (I didn't waste my time watching sg idol, so i can't quote anyone, just read from newspaper.)
but the most impt - the hordes of idol-less teenagers who have absolutely no clue about wat talent is, willing to spend entire allowances supporting any good looker, and have SMS-friendly thumbs guaranteed to out-SMS any sensible adult. then of coz they will get a higher score than a distinction of 66%!!!!
but of coz, this is all conjecture of future events. wat's more impt here is the present state - MPz gettin' jiggy wid it. Guess wid all dat bling, it wuz da next logical step 2take, yo.
So while the teenagers of today are gagging themselves over the MPz attempts at establishing a connection of some semblance, http://www.spug.net/showthread.php?t=87050, more grown up ppl like me have some concerns when we 1st saw it on the news. like:
WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!??!?!?!?!?!
we didn't (un)elect you to dance at chingay lor... we spent money to get foreign talent to come here and do the same thing, and better somemore. we (didn't) elect u to solve our country's problems... and there you are doing hip-hop?!?!?!?
I think in time to come, some of them will receive letters beseeching them to return to being actual MPs. below here is a sample letter you can use:
===================================================================
Dear MP,
Recently I heard in the news that you and your colleagues in parliament are to perform dances at next year's Chingay Parade. I salute your efforts - it probably must take lots of time and energy to become to competent at something some of you have admitted you are not good at.
However, the upgrading works for my precinct, promised in the elections earlier this year, have still not been carried out - there have been no signs of any construction work done in my area.
Seeing that Chingay is so far away and you being so competent at your dance moves, why don't you skip a few practise sessions and carry out your promises? you could start by
a) help me repaint my leaky ceiling HDB takes no liability for even though they built the damn building
b) help me set up hidden CCTV cameras in my house to catch my maid swinging my kid around by the legs
c) get my upstairs neighbour to stop their weekly late night mahjong sessions
d) get my downstairs neighbour to stop her nightly karaoke sessions
e) catch my neighbourhood cat killer
I'm sure you can start practising your dance moves in Jan '07 and still give a great performance.
Yours sincerely,
A flabbergasted citizen.
===================================================================
let's just all hope they start taking their serious positions seriously. itz so damn weird y'know wadyamean?. dey hang loose at da wrong times, like on national tv, and dey are so damn uptight when ppl criticise dem, yo.
"That's part of the fun - to laugh at yourself, to have a sense of humour
about everything...(yo)"-Chris de souza, MP, Holland-Bukit Timah GRC
Well, many of us found mrbrown humourous. even wid all dat bling, methinks its too late to git down widdit, yo?
I really really hope they stop all this nonsense.
yo.
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Doing Nothing & Dreaming
Today, or rather yesterday, was a do-nothing day. i had stuff planned, but i let it all go and vegetated with online games (www.xgenstudious.com. go ahead - vegetate.) and slept for a greater half of the day, something i hvn't done in a long long time.
i love these do-nothing days. i used to have more of them when i was studying though. just a late night before or morning decision, telling myself fark it, i need a break. and push everything aside. 2 positive outcomes are gained:
1) rest.
2) panic the next day spurs me on to accomplish wat i'm supposed to the day before.
i did take the time off from doing nothing to check out my mum's plants, and together we discovered a small green pepper hiding amongst the equally green leaves. the laughter that comes from discovery is just wonderful.
===================================================================
on wed i caught Singapore Dreaming http://www.singaporedreaming.com/ a "filem" by Colin Goh & his wife - editors of www.talkingcock.com. but the show's main draw is not slapstick humour, (think talking cock the movie) but really, how dank our very normal singaporean lives can be.
The father, played by Richard Low, is the typical chinese singaporean father. works and hardly spends on himself, using his hard earned money to send his son overseas for studies. he hardly shows any affection to his long suffering wife, belittles his son-in-law, and shows all his love and pins all his hopes on his son. His only dream is to strike Toto, and that his son is rich and successful.
The mother, played by Alice Lim, is the typical housewife, who slogs day and night for the family. nearing the end of the show, she recalls that she used to sing a lot before marriage, and wanted to b a famous singer - but she never sang again after marriage. for 20+yrs, all she knew was to clean the table, mop the floor, cook the food and wash the dishes. she asks herself, "what happened?"
The son, played by Dick Su, is the "villian" of the show. only dreams of making it big, but does little to achieve it. asks his parents for money to set up business, etc. in the show, he screams at his gf, "If you want to make it, you got to already look like you've made it!" which, sadly, might have some truth.
The girlfriend, played by Serene Chen, chipped in to send her good-for-nothing bf abroad for studies. dreams abt her perfect marriage and pins all hopes of the future on the guy. all the way, she showers him with support and encouragement, hoping her bf shares the same desire to get married.
The daughter, played by Yeo Yann Yann, is largely ignored by her father, even though she is pregnant with her first child. A secretary at work, she is highly depended on by her boss, who orders her around and takes her for granted. Shackled to her job, she is at every beck and call from her boss and his wife.
The son-in-law, played by Lim Yu Beng, is looked down upon by his father-in-law, maybe coz he doesn't earn much. a former regular, he struggles as with his insurance agent job, his father-in-law and his relationship with his wife - which is starting to strain, possibly because he, once again, doesn't earn much. The scene where he attempts to speak chinese with a china prostitute is hilarious - he sounds worse than me!!
all these ppl sound very familiar to u? go watch it before its run ends. i treated my consultant to the movie, and really didn't mind paying $14.50.
what are you dreaming of?
i love these do-nothing days. i used to have more of them when i was studying though. just a late night before or morning decision, telling myself fark it, i need a break. and push everything aside. 2 positive outcomes are gained:
1) rest.
2) panic the next day spurs me on to accomplish wat i'm supposed to the day before.
i did take the time off from doing nothing to check out my mum's plants, and together we discovered a small green pepper hiding amongst the equally green leaves. the laughter that comes from discovery is just wonderful.
===================================================================
on wed i caught Singapore Dreaming http://www.singaporedreaming.com/ a "filem" by Colin Goh & his wife - editors of www.talkingcock.com. but the show's main draw is not slapstick humour, (think talking cock the movie) but really, how dank our very normal singaporean lives can be.
The father, played by Richard Low, is the typical chinese singaporean father. works and hardly spends on himself, using his hard earned money to send his son overseas for studies. he hardly shows any affection to his long suffering wife, belittles his son-in-law, and shows all his love and pins all his hopes on his son. His only dream is to strike Toto, and that his son is rich and successful.
The mother, played by Alice Lim, is the typical housewife, who slogs day and night for the family. nearing the end of the show, she recalls that she used to sing a lot before marriage, and wanted to b a famous singer - but she never sang again after marriage. for 20+yrs, all she knew was to clean the table, mop the floor, cook the food and wash the dishes. she asks herself, "what happened?"
The son, played by Dick Su, is the "villian" of the show. only dreams of making it big, but does little to achieve it. asks his parents for money to set up business, etc. in the show, he screams at his gf, "If you want to make it, you got to already look like you've made it!" which, sadly, might have some truth.
The girlfriend, played by Serene Chen, chipped in to send her good-for-nothing bf abroad for studies. dreams abt her perfect marriage and pins all hopes of the future on the guy. all the way, she showers him with support and encouragement, hoping her bf shares the same desire to get married.
The daughter, played by Yeo Yann Yann, is largely ignored by her father, even though she is pregnant with her first child. A secretary at work, she is highly depended on by her boss, who orders her around and takes her for granted. Shackled to her job, she is at every beck and call from her boss and his wife.
The son-in-law, played by Lim Yu Beng, is looked down upon by his father-in-law, maybe coz he doesn't earn much. a former regular, he struggles as with his insurance agent job, his father-in-law and his relationship with his wife - which is starting to strain, possibly because he, once again, doesn't earn much. The scene where he attempts to speak chinese with a china prostitute is hilarious - he sounds worse than me!!
all these ppl sound very familiar to u? go watch it before its run ends. i treated my consultant to the movie, and really didn't mind paying $14.50.
what are you dreaming of?
Sunday, September 24, 2006
Progress
things are progressing, but not as well as i hoped. or maybe i want more than what is given. maybe that's y i feeling a little down. coz other ppl still hv it better.
i need to stop and take stock - to see where i'm heading.
just hope i'm rewarded for my efforts.
it shdn't hv to be so difficult.
i guess i'm feeling insecure and worried. and when i feel negative, i take it out on others.
i need to be a better person.
and you make me want to.
i need to stop and take stock - to see where i'm heading.
just hope i'm rewarded for my efforts.
it shdn't hv to be so difficult.
i guess i'm feeling insecure and worried. and when i feel negative, i take it out on others.
i need to be a better person.
and you make me want to.
Sometimes
sometimes i really wish that i am the type who will bo chup - watever comes, comes. don't come means don't come. but i'm not. i HAVE to make things work. so i will run around and make sure everyone is on the same boat. until i started work.
i'm not saying i'm the only one who rows the boat. others chip in also. but i took on more coz when i was a student, i still had more free time.
but now when responsibilities are assigned, i do not wish to take up any more that what i have/want to. i understand you are busy, but i am too. that's y we started assigning responsibilities in the 1st place - to be fair to everyone, so its not up to a few of us to make everyone feel happy. everyone shd chip in to make everyone feel happy.
similarly, when i've arranged something, and u want a change in arrangements, u can go ahead to arrange with everyone. just dun expect me to clean up ur mess and re-do all my effort. last time still can, now i dun hv the energy liao.
i know that more than half the time, my efforts pay off handsomely. i usually enjoy my time with the group. but i can only give so much now. so pls pull ur own weight also. if u want to change direction, its up to u to pull everyone ur way. if u dun want to do that, u're free to get off on your own accord. i dun wanna pull for anyone anymore.
no hard feelings.
i'm not saying i'm the only one who rows the boat. others chip in also. but i took on more coz when i was a student, i still had more free time.
but now when responsibilities are assigned, i do not wish to take up any more that what i have/want to. i understand you are busy, but i am too. that's y we started assigning responsibilities in the 1st place - to be fair to everyone, so its not up to a few of us to make everyone feel happy. everyone shd chip in to make everyone feel happy.
similarly, when i've arranged something, and u want a change in arrangements, u can go ahead to arrange with everyone. just dun expect me to clean up ur mess and re-do all my effort. last time still can, now i dun hv the energy liao.
i know that more than half the time, my efforts pay off handsomely. i usually enjoy my time with the group. but i can only give so much now. so pls pull ur own weight also. if u want to change direction, its up to u to pull everyone ur way. if u dun want to do that, u're free to get off on your own accord. i dun wanna pull for anyone anymore.
no hard feelings.
Thursday, September 21, 2006
Sunday, September 17, 2006
Tired Post
I want to comment on current affairs, but at 3.30am, i'm too sleepy to think, and too tired to take the ten steps to the hall to fumble in the dark for the newspaper. thus i will expend less effort and blog abt my boring life instead. ha.
in 3.5 hrs i will hv to wake up and go for my company soccer tournament. i don't play soccer. heck, i don't even like playing ball/team sports. my dept was going, so i cldn't refuse - my feeble attempt at resisting was to tell the team captain to put me in reserve, as i might be going overseas (this was true then). last week he told me he couldn't find anyone, so i'd hv to play. he probably didn't try looking too hard.
but no worries. my plan is simple -
if the ball comes my way, i kick it twds the other side.
if the opponent, with the ball, comes my way, i shall harass him for all of 30 seconds.
if the opponent turns violent, i avoid his elbow/shoulder/head/fist/spanner and collaspe on the ground. thereafter i will feel unwell, and come home early.
been sick for the past 2 wks too, so didn't manage to spend time with impt ppl. i just hope things are still progressing well.
so this wkend is packed. i hope the coming week wld be fruitful as well, to make up for lost time.
in 3.5 hrs i will hv to wake up and go for my company soccer tournament. i don't play soccer. heck, i don't even like playing ball/team sports. my dept was going, so i cldn't refuse - my feeble attempt at resisting was to tell the team captain to put me in reserve, as i might be going overseas (this was true then). last week he told me he couldn't find anyone, so i'd hv to play. he probably didn't try looking too hard.
but no worries. my plan is simple -
if the ball comes my way, i kick it twds the other side.
if the opponent, with the ball, comes my way, i shall harass him for all of 30 seconds.
if the opponent turns violent, i avoid his elbow/shoulder/head/fist/spanner and collaspe on the ground. thereafter i will feel unwell, and come home early.
been sick for the past 2 wks too, so didn't manage to spend time with impt ppl. i just hope things are still progressing well.
so this wkend is packed. i hope the coming week wld be fruitful as well, to make up for lost time.
