Day of Nightmares!

Currently Playing: I Just Wanna Live by Good Charlotte

Slept til 1130am this morning... but before waking up kena plagued by nightmares... probably started abt 9am...

Nightmare 1: NIE Biathlon
Was considering joining it... then decided against it coz i dun think i'd like to run in wet, tight shorts... Major OUCH. abrasion such chialat chialat. So i dreamt i was back in hall... then every fricking door i passed hung a sign "Finisher - NIE Biathlon" or "3rd - NIE Biathlon" or something liddat... every fricking door except mine!!! aaarrggghhh...

It's not abt peer pressure... but it's the thot of if others can do it, y can't i? but i still dun wanna kena abrasions... most prob won't go for the biathlon but will try to match the distances by myself. And will be signing up for StanChart 10km tonite!

Nightmare 2: SCDF & SAF
Somehow, dreamt that i was riding an SCDF vehicle... dunno whether was part of them of being rescued. hahaha. but we (dunno who were with me, but they were ppl i knew) were on some kinda HUGE empty platform out and high up at sea... then we got out of the vehicle and had to climb down this long hanging ladder... now surprisingly, the height didn't scare me coz i was thinking can just drop into the sea...

then i realised, i needed my SAF things!! dunno y. then all my SAF stuff are in the old house, and i lost my SAF card like... 4 yrs ago? and nv bothered to replace it. was thinking die liao die liao... got totally nothing, totally not prepared at all....

then i woke up. once was bad enuff, but twice? 2 nightmares? esp the last one... i lay awake, stunned for a while, wondering if i really needed to go back SAF, thinking where my things were... then remembered i hvn't got any letter or anything yet. whew. decided enuff was enuff... time to wake up.

i really hope they nv call me back, although VJ told me it's all computerised now, no escaping, no losing of documents & records. Sianz... hated my NS life, hated the regimen, the 24hr duties, the backside covering, the rank pulling, the NSF bullying by regulars, the bengs, the red tape, the "discipline", the endless forms, and almost everything abt the army. i hope i nv hv to go back.

hmm... maybe to escape, i cld stay longer in sch.... hahhahahah