Comment for "End Work Week Update"

comment turned into a blog entry all by itself, so instead of hogging a fren's cyberspace, i post it here.


well... abt the video camera, if u doubt others and prefer to handle it urself, that's the tradeoff. just like when i doubted others and handled (ie. micromanaged) everything. didn't get much fun then... some degree of trust will do u good.

i'll admit that i hvn't looked at the photos or videos... but wat for? things are still very fresh in my mind. but i think after some time has passed and ppl want/need to remember then u'll really get the graditude u expect, for something u forgotten by then.

and also, i think u think too much. when ppl dun say anything, u wonder if they're grateful. when ppl thank you all the time, u wonder if it's just lip service. no pleasing you, is there? hahha

focus on the present, and plan for the future, but dun hinge it on others. ultimately, everything is just about you; and it all only depends on u. if u wanna do something, just go ahead and do it, dun wait for others. they will come along if they want. your life is abt u. dun need to think so much abt others.

so if u doubt the trip is going to happen, but u really want it, go ahead and make it happen. in the past trips, i didn't care whether u guys felt grateful a not. i just knew i wanted a fun trip with u guys, and wanted u guys to hv fun as well, so i planned it. it's like my usual maxim: "If I see something that needs to be done, (and I have the ability to do it,) I do it."

and apologies if i dun seem to be doing anything for the coming trip. bad things have been happening to me, and i'm not just talking abt fyp and studies. hahahah. plus i still hvn't started planning my own grad trip yet. in this case, i don't have the ability.

as such, since i did not put in any effort, i do not have the right to be too disappointed if it does not happen. i also won't have the right to question the motives and (in)actions of others. coz since i did not give my 100%, how can i question others who didn't as well? the only person who wld hv the right to question everyone and doubt the frenship wld be the person who planned the trip, coz no one else gave support. just like my attempt at house warming last yr. hahha

if we sit there and don't do anything to make things right, we're equally at fault in making things wrong.

i'm not directing anything or blaming anyone. just sharing how i live my life. everyone else is free to disagree.